Page 85 of Blinded By Love

Hayden’s jaw clenches and he says, “Come here,” before uncrossing his arms. I walk towards him slowly. Once I’m in front of him, he reaches for my hips, pulling me closer to him. His fingers dig into my skin, not hard that it hurts, but it’s as if he is warning me or trying to send me a message. “Don’t ever apologize for your condition again. I don’t give a fuck if I have to take care of you. I’ll take care of you until the day the world ends, even if you don’t want me to. Understand?” I nod my head slowly but Hayden doesn’t like that response so he grabs my chin with his two fingers. “Let me hear you say it. ‘I understand’.”

“I understand.” I say softly.

“Good,” he says before leaning down and pressing his soft and plump lips on mine.

I lean into him and my legs feel like they need support from him to help me stand. Hayden’s hands make their way to my butt, holding me against him as he kisses me demandingly and passionately as if he’s trying to prove a point.

His tongue caresses mine and I shiver in his arms. He nips my bottom lip making a moan escape from me. He smiles in the kiss slowly, knowing he has me weak to my knees.

“Woah! I don’t need to see this first thing in the morning.” I remove my lips from Hayden and back away from him immediately.

Natalia has her arms crossed over her chest and she is glaring at Hayden behind me.

“You can’t say anything,” Hayden says, which makes me notice her attire. A baggy t-shirt that looks like a dress and no shorts. In walks Chris with no shirt on and just gray sweatpants. “Smooth, Chris.”

“At least I didn’t put on a show.” Chris chuckles before sitting at the table.

I am about to walk towards the table to explain how I made food for everyone but Hayden grabs me and turns me around. “Are you busy today?”

“No, why?” I ask, raising my head to look up at him.

“I want to take you somewhere.”

I furrow my eyebrows at him, a small smile making its way to my face. “Where?”

Hayden smirks before leaning down and pressing his lips against mine before taking them away. “You’ll see.”

Forty-One

Jaclyn

Hayden drives through a familiar road up the hill. His hand is resting on my thigh and “All I Want” by Kodaline is playing softly in the car.

I look out the windows, watching as the trees pass by us and the town becomes smaller.

Hayden told me to borrow one of Natalia’s swimsuits. It made me wonder what he had in mind but I trusted him and just went with it. Natalia let me wear one of her summer dresses because I didn't have any clothes with me.

While changing, she questioned me about Hayden and I. I told her the truth about us and said that I don't know what we’re doing. I explained to her that I’m scared of how he makes me feel and she told me that Hayden doesn’t have a good history with girls and he’s always steered clear from them until me.

It makes me wonder why.

What could he see in me, someone who has enough demons to share with someone else? I never wanted someone to love because all loving someone ever did to me was get me hurt in the end.

But here I am, feeling things I definitely shouldn’t be feeling with Hayden Night.

“What are we doing here?” I ask as Hayden pulls the car over to park on the side of the road.

“Going for a swim.” He shrugs and turns the engine off before getting out. Hayden grabs towels from the trunk as I get out of the car and look around. It feels nice outside and the weather is amazing today with clear skies and a beautiful sun. “Let’s go.” Hayden closes the trunk and he holds his hand out for me which I take.

We walk hand in hand inside the forest. It doesn’t take long for us to get to the building that is covered in plants.

Hayden and I walk up the stairs to get to the top. He places a large blanket on the floor and then our bag on top.

“Why are we here?” I ask, letting go of his hand and walking to the edge of the roof.

“I wanted to spend the day here, with you.” Hayden walks up to me and he grabs me by the waist. I turn around and smile when I see he is already looking down at me. “Arms up,” he says and I do as he says. Hayden slowly removes the dress and throws it on the blanket with our stuff. Hayden’s eyes go to my chest and I blush immediately.

Hayden’s never seen me without any clothes on. Sure he may touch me but I always have clothes on. He has never pressured me to go further with him, which I’m grateful for but the way he’s looking at me right now, like I’m the only thing he needs, I want him to do anything he wants with me.

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