Page 78 of Blinded By Love

“Hayden, no-”

“Too late.” I lean closer to her, trying to ignore the way my dick strains against my jeans. My hand slips into her jeans, not undoing the bottoms.

I slip my hand in her underwear and when my hand glides against her soft pussy, I try to keep in a groan. My finger slides between her folds where I find her wet, so wet I could slip right in with ease.

Jaclyn closes her eyes and rests her head on her hand. “Hayden, please. Not here.”

“Were you wet before or after I walked in?” I ask as one finger glides against her clit making her shake.

She shakes her head. “Hayden, I’ll let you do whatever you want, just not here. God.”

“Answer me first princess. Before or after?”

I slide a finger down her clit and tease her opening. She presses her thighs together harder, trapping my hand.

“All day. I’ve been thinking about you all day, Hayden.” Jaclyn looks up at me. “Please stop. I’ll let you touch me anywhere but here,” she begs and because I can’t say no to her, I stop touching her, removing my hand slowly from the inside of her jeans.

Jaclyn breathes in and out, trying to calm down from me teasing her. She feels everything. Just from a simple touch with one finger she probably would have come on my finger.

I take the single finger in my mouth, keeping my eyes on her.

Her eyes never leave my mouth as she watches me suck off her juices from my finger.

Thirty-Seven

Jaclyn

We walk into the club as the song “Devil I Know” by Allie X is playing.

People are dancing sensually with their partners and some are making out on the dance floor.

We aren’t at the club Hayden usually fights at because Natalia said she wants Hayden to have fun for his birthday.

I didn’t know it was his birthday today. I wish I had so that I could have gotten him something but Natalia said he doesn’t even like his birthday or telling people.

Things between us have been nice.

We are just having fun I think and I’m okay with that because I’m trying to keep my feelings away from the situation between Hayden and I but it’s hard when my obsessive thoughts come into play and want to control every feeling I have in my body when he’s around.

I constantly wonder about what Hayden thinks about me or if he likes me the same way I like him. And I like him a lot because whenever I have a crush, it’s not just something simple or small. I always go full in with all my heart which is a bad habit because I just end up getting hurt.

That’s why with guys, I never try to get too close or I leave before I start liking them too much because I don’t want to give them the chance to leave me before I fall too deep.

Hayden makes me excited and blush whenever he touches me or compliments me.

He always says the right things.

We haven’t done anything past him touching me with his fingers. I’m too scared to do more because what if I get hurt? We are a disaster in the making, waiting to happen.

I already know I will get hurt but I can’t stop.

Sometimes I want to cuss him out and call him names to push him away but before I even get a word out he decides to distract me.

It’s like he knows what I’m thinking and it’s a problem.

“I’m not going to drink tonight,” I tell Natalia.

I’m really not going to because I have a doctor's appointment soon so I need to make sure my levels are good or else I’ll get lectured which makes me end up feeling like shit.

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