Page 10 of Blinded By Love

One time I did talk back to a customer because I was having a hard day and I just couldn’t help but snap at her. She was giving me a hard time when I told her there was a wait but she didn’t care.

“There’s seriously no reason for being an asshole,” I mutter while pouring Max’s shake in a glass cup.

“You met that group officially?” I hear someone say making me turn my head and see Lisa.

Lisa is an older woman who looks like she is fragile but she is anything but. She is a feisty old woman who is strong and can definitely take care of herself and run an entire restaurant if she had to. I noticed that about her when I first met her.

“Yea and not all of them are the nicest,” I say. “But don’t worry I won’t be rude to them or anything. I know that customers are always right even though they are really not,” I say in a sarcastic tone.

“They aren’t that bad as you work more with them. Plus they tip well so it’s all worth it.”

“As long as they tip well then I’ll handle their bullshit.”

Lisa winks and pats my shoulder before walking to the cash register.

I check on other tables while their food gets made. I learned that the girl who ordered that latte and pumpkin bread, she likes thriller books and the book she was currently reading was The Silent Patient which happens to be one of my favorite thriller books. It is such a cool and interesting story and we talked a little bit about the book before I left her table.

I grab the food for boys at the end table and then walk to them. As I set down their food, I can feel Hayden’s stare on me. I want to turn my head and ask him if he has a staring problem but I don’t have the guts to do that so instead I just look at him and say, “Do you need anything?”

He trails his eyes along every small centimeter of my face making me insecure because I didn’t bother wearing makeup and I know that I have small blemishes here and there. His eyes fill with something dark.

Eyes can reveal anything about a person and what they don’t show people.

He recognizes me and I know he is going to make sure I pay the price he promised me long ago.

“No, just the check when you get the chance,” Hayden says before he rubs his lip and looks at Kayden. My eyes go to Kayden who is eyeing me with a skeptical look.

What is with these two and staring?

“Ah, this shake is fucking fantastic. Thank you…?”

I look away from Kayden and look at Max who has a happy smile on his face. “Jaclyn,” I say before looking at Hayden whose jaw clenches. I look at his hands and see veins running along his hand and up his arm. But they are clenched tightly making the fresh cuts on his knuckle reopen.

“I’m Max. Are you new here or something?” Max says, making me look away from Hayden.

“Yea I started a few days ago.”

“Ah, well I know we’ll have lots of fun together,” Max says before winking again and giving me a flirty smile.

I nod my head and leave their table. As I pass the counter I tell Andy and Lisa I’m going for my break. I grab my bag from the hanger in the hallway and go to the bathroom. I lock the door behind me and check my phone.

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It’s going to get lower, I know it.

I don’t know if it’s because of the interaction with Hayden that made me feel like my heart was going to burst out of my chest and made my hands shake or if it’s because I didn’t eat enough before work.

I grab a protein bar from my backpack and shove it all in my mouth, wishing for this anxious feeling to go away.

I’m always scared of being low because being low feels like dying.

I can’t describe the feeling in a more accurate way.

When I’m low I feel like I’m going to die. I guess you can call it a panic attack but without the panic. Everyone has different feelings when they are low.

I wash my hands and throw the wrapper in the trash before opening the door. I walk out in the hallway and bump into something hard. I’m about to look up and apologize but I’m pushed against the wall. I hiss as my head bangs against the wall.

My eyes meet dark familiar ones.

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