Page 44 of Dark Cravings

THOMAS

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Seeing Kenley play with that guy accomplished one thing and one thing only. It made me realize I’d done nothing but fuck things up. I took something amazing and tossed it aside. I missed them both desperately but I had to shit or get off the pot. I could either handle Shelby being a switch or I couldn’t. Either way, I had to decide before there was any point in talking to either of them. Hell, I didn’t know if either of them would talk to me.

Being part of a ménage relationship wasn’t a problem for me. I enjoyed watching every bit as I enjoyed taking part. After all, wasn’t it every guy’s dream to see two women fucking each other? I wanted to believe I could let Shelby have it all to make the relationship work. It was time to have a conversation with Chase. He and Seb were both Doms and shared Raven without issue. They’d been together for years and even had a couple of kids together.

That night, I showed up an hour before my shift started and found Chase in his office.

“Hey, man. Got a few minutes?” I asked, knocking on the open door.

“Always. Come on in, Thomas. What can I do for you? Is there a problem you need me to take care of?”

“No, no. Nothing like that. It’s actually of a more personal nature.”

“Ah. You want to talk about Shelby and Kenley.”

“How on earth did you know that?”

“Because I know the three of you have been dancing around each other for a solid couple of months. If I had to hazard a guess, you want to know how Seb and I share Domming.”

“That’s exactly what I want to know. The girls and I work really well together but I’ve never had to share like this. I don’t know if I can do it long-term.”

“I think you’re looking at this the wrong way. When you’re playing, it’s not just about your pleasure, right?”

“No, of course not. It’s actually more important for me that my partner is fully satisfied.”

“When Shelby is in her Domme role, does she stop being your partner?”

“No, she doesn’t.”

“Do you see where I’m going here?”

“You think my focus should be more on the fact she’s getting pleasure from the play than about myself.”

“That’s exactly right. When Seb and I are playing with Raven, I don’t think about the fact Seb is Domming as well. What I think about is Raven and how I can give her pleasure. Ultimately, you need to decide whether that logic works for you and you can give them both what they need. It’s not like she’s trying to Dom you,” he chuckled.

“Oh fuck no. That’s never gonna happen.”

“No, I don’t imagine so. Look, you need to figure out what you want. From what I understand, it may well be too late, so I wouldn’t take too long if I were you.”

“I really fucked things up.”

“That you did, my friend. That you did. I saw Carlos and Kenley playing. How did that make you feel?”

“I saw red, Chase. It was all I could do to control my temper.”

“You were jealous as fuck,” he laughed. “Keep that in mind too. Could you stand seeing the two of them with other people?”

“Ugh, I don’t even want to think about that. Thanks, Chase. It looks like I have some soul-searching to do.”

“Good luck, my man. I really hope everything works out for you. You deserve to be happy.”

“We’ll see. Catch you later.”

I headed to my office to think about what he had said. He had made some very valid points. They were things I hadn’t even thought of. I missed the girls dreadfully. Maybe the fact I sought Chase out meant I was bothered enough by this to man up. I needed to talk to them. I needed to apologize for causing so much strife. More than anything, I needed to tell them I was all in. I could share with Shelby. Chase had laid things out so simply, I couldn’t believe I hadn’t been able to come to that conclusion on my own.

I hadn’t seen Shelby at the club since the night things blew up and I feared she wouldn’t come back at all. In her place, I wasn’t sure I would either. So, my next step was to seek out Kenley and grovel at her feet. I needed her to forgive me, both for acting like an asshole when she played and for doing a scene with someone else. I never should have done that. I headed downstairs to look for her, hopeful that she would be here tonight and willing to talk with me. After a couple of minutes, I spotted her on the dance floor and made my way toward her.

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