Page 26 of Dark Cravings

“No! I didn’t feel pressured into anything, Shelby. In that moment, I wanted you both so much.”

“Then I don’t understand why you got freaked out. Did Thomas and I fuck this up?”

“No, I did,” I answered, a tear rolling down my cheek. “This is all so new to me. Playing with two people? Sleeping with two people? It’s a lot.”

“Do you not want this?” Thomas asked quietly.

“I’m not even sure what this is. Are we just playing and fucking around?”

“I already told you that wasn’t my style,” Shelby answered.

“It’s not mine either, Kenley. We want to build something with you. With the three of us.”

“I don’t know if I can do it. I—I just don’t know.”

I looked at them both and almost broke when I saw the hope die on their faces. I was pretty sure I had just devastated both of them and that was too much for me to take.

“I’m sorry,” I cried, running out of the room, leaving them stunned on the couch.

I ran up to my room, slammed the door, and flopped down on my bed. I sobbed, not even caring that I’d left them sitting downstairs. Not long after, the front door opened and closed. I was alone again and wondering if I’d just fucked up the best thing to ever happen to me.

THOMAS

? ?? She’s so creative when you cut the lights … ???

Shelby and I walked out of Kenley’s house in shock. I had no idea what the fuck had just happened but it was in Kenley’s hands now.

“What the flying fuck was that?” Shelby hissed. “I’ve tried all week not to get angry but I sure am feeling that way now.”

“Shelby, she’s just confused. This is totally new to her and she needs to process. I know it’s hard but if we really want this, we need to be patient.”

“Why did she start this if she didn’t want to do it?”

I could tell that she was trying to mask her sadness with anger but our options were to be patient or to call this over before it ever really got to start.

“We need to be reasonable about this. It’s not that she didn’t want it. It’s that she needed to try it to figure that out. It seems it was just easier for you and me.”

“This sucks monkey balls,” she pouted.

“I know,” I chuckled. “That’s quite the visual though.”

That got a small laugh out of her. I pulled her into a hug and kissed the top of her head.

“What do you think is going to happen?”

“I’m not sure, Shelby, but I sure hope she decides to pursue this. Do you want to come back to my place?”

“Honestly, I don’t feel like I’d be very good company right now. I’m just going to head home and nurse my wounds with a good stiff drink.”

“Okay, baby girl. Call me if you need anything, okay? And don’t text Kenley. Let’s just wait for her, okay?”

“Okay. I’ll see you later,” she said, kissing me gently.

She got into her car and drove away. I headed to my car with one last look at her house before I climbed into my car and headed home. Once there, I poured myself a drink and settled into my chair in my living room. I had spent a lot of time over the last week thinking about that night. I was surprised that I didn’t hate sharing the Dom role… much. I wasn’t sure if it was something I could do regularly long term, even though I was trying to fix things with Kenley. What I knew for sure was that I wanted a relationship with them. Both of them.

I never thought I would be part of a ménage relationship but here I was trying to make it work. I had never shared the Dom role and it was something I really needed to think about. If we went forward with this relationship, I needed to figure out whether I could actually do it. After all, that was part of Shelby and I couldn’t very well ask her to drop it.

The sex had been amazing. Fucking Kenley had been unlike anything I’d had with anyone else. Watching her eat Shelby out while I fucked her was hot as hell. I could definitely get used to that and couldn’t wait to fuck Shelby too. I just hoped I had that opportunity. I finished my drink and headed to my gym in the basement to work out some of my frustrations. I wasn’t mad at Kenley. I was just afraid of what was going to happen. After all, I wanted both of them. Would I be able to build a relationship with just Shelby? Would I be happy to have to bring in another sub to satisfy her needs? I just didn’t know.

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