Page 169 of Devious Knight

And you will never fill his shoes. “He was one busy guy.”

“Sure was. Anyhow, I was thinking we could go fishing sometime. Spring break is just a breath away. Unless you have plans with your girl, we could hang out. Maybe take a trip to Norway again. We haven’t done that in a while.”

“That sounds great.” I decide to play the game. “She’s with her old man for the break, so we can definitely hang out.”

“Great. We’ll set something up then.”

“Sure. It will be great to hang out and catch up outside of college.” I hope his ass will be dead by then. Spring break is next weekend.

“Absolutely.”

“Well I won’t take up too much more of your time.”

“I’ll give you a call.”

“Cool.”

Before I back away I stare him down and try to erase every good memory I have of this man.

The time he taught me how to ride a bike.

The times he took me fishing.

The times he took me to Norway.

The time he offered to take me in after my parents died.

The time he offered to be a father to me and give me a home.

It was all fake. He was a lie. Just like everything else about him.

I shake those memories from my mind, then I leave.

I hide under the blanket of night, surrounded by the trees in the woods.

I’m at Rockport, a seaside town an hour away from campus. Before me a log cabin. Every room inside the house is dark except the bedroom Parker is staying in with one of the cheerleaders—Suzie Biermann, the same type of girl as Lana.

Easy and accessible. Likes men with money no matter how old he is or off limits.

They drove up here an hour ago and I followed them in my car. I was watching Parker before Suzie met him. He was at a café in the city but it seems he arranged to meet Suzie there. A clever move. It draws less attention unless you’re me and you’re watching them.

When they left I decided to go too, so I could add more things to the list of disgusting shit on my so called godfather.

I was able to park in a good spot where they couldn’t see me, then I used my binoculars to do the rest of the work.

There was no doubt they were here to fuck around. Suzie got out of the car wearing nothing but a thong and Parker was kissing her.

The two went inside the cabin and have been in there ever since.

I don’t know why I’m still here. It’s obvious they’re not coming out until they’re done. And I’m here because…

I felt like I needed to do something. Anything. Like Isabelle.

Playing looky-loo is a last resort for those who have nothing else up their sleeves. For me it’s a way of controlling my temper.

But it’s getting late and I should get back. Even if it’s to reconvene with the guys. I spoke to Dmitri and Logan about everything.

I only told them because I don’t want secrets between us. At least not on my part. I know they each have their demons to battle, but I need to have people in my life who I can be real with.

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