Page 45 of Return to You

“I want you inside me. Now.”

He loved that she was being so bold. Demanding exactly what she wanted.

She gasped as her hands fisted in his hair while he licked, sucked, nipped, and kissed her pebble-hard tips. He tried to hold off. He wanted to draw this encounter out as long as possible. He’d dreamed of it for so long that he never wanted it to end. He needed to kiss every inch of her body. So, he ignored her request and continued worshipping her breasts.

She moaned and pleaded for several more minutes, writhing beneath his attention and he was sure then that he could make her come just like this. But she had other ideas in mind. She reached beneath them, slid her uninjured hand into his sweats and wrapped her fingers around his rock-hard cock and looked him straight in the eyes.

“Now. I want you inside me now.”

And that was it. His thin thread of control snapped. He pushed down his sweats and tugged her panties off. When they cleared her feet and hit the floor, a realization hit him. “Fuck.”

“Yes please,” she nodded.

“No,” He shook his head. “I don’t have a condom.”

“Fuck.” Her eyes widened.

They stared at one another, their heavy pants the only sound in the quiet house.

She was the first to break their silent standoff. “I have an IUD.”

He’d never had sex without protection and at the suggestion of it, his dick jumped.

“I’m clean.” He’d been tested in rehab and hadn’t been with anyone since he’d been sober.

She reached out and once again wrapped her fingers around his girth.

He closed his eyes as every muscle in his body tightened like a rubber band being stretched to its limit. “Are you sure?”

She didn’t answer at first. Instead, he felt her tug him closer to her and he opened his eyes in time to see her position his cock at her entrance.

“Yes. I’m sure.” She lifted her eyes to his as she rubbed his engorged tip up and down the seam of her entrance. "Are you sure?"

“Yes.” He covered her hand with his and they both moved the broad head of his cock up and down her arousal-soaked lips. With each pass, he grew harder as he watched the smooth skin of his crown glisten with her juices.

"I want you. Now. Please—," she whimpered.

He gripped her hip with one hand and thrust into her tight canal in one powerful stroke and her words turned into an unintelligible cry. Her body resisted him at first and he stilled. He could feel her inner walls suction around him like a vacuum.

He rested his forehead against hers and remained still, allowing her time to adjust to him. When he felt her thighs relax, he pushed further in, burying himself up to his balls and he felt the telltale signs of his release already tingling in them.

He opened his eyes and warned, “This isn’t going to last long.”

Her eyes flashed with challenge. “If you don’t fuck me already I’m going to—”

Kade never found out what she would do because he pulled out of her and pushed back in, cutting off her threat. He lost himself as he pumped in and out of her, his fingers digging into the flesh of her hips. Time seemed to lose any semblance of meaning in his mind. It could've been a minute or it could’ve been an hour. Nothing existed except Ali and him, and the way that they were making each other feel.

Even in this “quickie-style” situation, he felt so much more than just sexual energy flowing between them. With every thrust, he felt like it was more than just his physical body connecting with her. It was like his soul was being injected into hers.

He’d never felt anything like this before. This was special, what he felt for Ali. And he was more than ready to put in whatever work was necessary to make things right between them, so they could move forward together. Now that he’d tasted her, kissed her, been inside of her, he couldn’t go back to what they were before.

Keeping one hand fixed hard on her hips, he slid the other farther up her body. The heat of her soft skin felt amazing under his rough palms. So did the way her muscles shook and trembled under his touch.

“Yes, yes, yes,” she whispered as her nails dug into his shoulders as she anchored her grip there.

When her inner walls finally clenched, bearing down so hard on his cock that he could hardly thrust into her anymore, her entire body began to shake with release. Then he let himself go and emptied into her as she also exploded in an earth-shattering orgasm. Every muscle in his body contracted as they reached that all-powerful climax. He wrapped his arms around her tight, not wanting to ever let her go.

It was such a contrast for him. As everything simultaneously became blurry and twisted, they also became perfectly clear. He knew with more certainty than ever that Ali was his one and only. At the same time was confused about the steps he’d have to take to make sure they ended up together. He knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was exactly where he was supposed to be but was confused about how much longer he’d be able to stay in the limbo of the uneasy balance he had with Ali.

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