Page 39 of Learning to Change

His brain was slowly coming back to life, and it seemed like some things were easier to process than others.

“Yes, Dean wanted to share with you too.” My answer had Dean forgetting to breathe again, but Joel smiled up at both of us. “Come here, slut. We need cuddles from our boy.”

Well, I was pretty sure Joel could use cuddles and I had a feeling they’d make Dean feel more confident, so there didn’t seem to be a downside. I was curious to see what Dean would do, though, but as Joel slowly climbed up on our laps like he was wading through mud, Dean’s breathing went back to normal and he tucked his dick back in his shorts.

Not bad.

No one was going to pass out and we’d all gotten to come at least once.

“I…I was…” Joel’s sentence wandered away from him as he settled half on my lap and half on Dean’s. “Very.”

Nodding to himself, he didn’t seem to realize he hadn’t finished the sentence. He just smiled and rubbed my chest before reaching out to pat Dean’s arm. “Very.”

That seemed to say a lot to Joel, but it just made Dean smile.

I’d reached the point where I didn’t know what to do or what to say, so I focused on holding Joel and rubbing Dean’s head and shoulder with mine. It didn’t feel like enough but they seemed happy, so I tried to cut myself some slack.

It didn’t work.

I still felt like there was more productive shit I should be doing but I didn’t want to ruin the mood for them.

How did other Doms do it?

How did they know what to do next?

I didn’t have good answers but after a few minutes of quiet snuggling, Joel surfaced more and solved the problem for me. “You can get me water now. I’m awake. But I want juice, not water.”

Someone online had clearly told him that he needed to be given water after a scene.

“I think juice sounds like a wonderful idea.” Before I could decide how to get it for him, Dean leaned over and kissed Joel’s cheek.

“I’ll get it but you’ve got to move your butt. I’m kinda stuck.” Dean’s very accurate admission got a giggle from Joel. “That was your plan, huh?”

Pretending to glare at Joel as he snickered, Dean did his best to look like a frustrated Dom. “You thought I’d escape if you didn’t pin me down?”

Joel didn’t see the point in lying to him. “Yes, and I was right, but now you seem okay and I’m thirsty, so you have to come back.”

He had a good point.

Even Dean sighed. “You’re such a brat.”

“But I’m a smart one.” Lifting his legs off Dean, Joel wiggled his way completely onto my lap and curled into me the best he could. “I got what I wanted and I was sexy and now you’re bringing me a drink.”

He was definitely the smart one even if he was slightly interesting.

“Well, what does my smart slut think about being a cockwarmer?” Personally, I was on the let’s do this again side, but I was going to do my best not to influence Joel.

He liked to be the one to manipulate Dean but he was kind of easy to manipulate too. All I’d have to do was tell him how amazing he was at it and how great he’d done and he’d do it again. Joel sucked up praise like a sponge.

But his sexy, pleased sound and his little wiggle said I didn’t have anything to worry about. “I found subspace just like they said I would.”

They had to be his internet friends, but I decided not to ask. We might actually kill Dean if Joel had to confess about talking to anyone else about his penis and his desire to explore submission.

“Did you like it? Subspace, I mean.” I thought I knew the answer to that but I was glad when he nodded and made another happy wiggle. “What did you think of being a cockwarmer? You can like subspace and want that part again without wanting to do the rest.”

I thought that should be obvious but I wanted to double-check and make sure we were all on the same page.

“Hmm. I liked the cockwarmer part. That wasn’t bad at all, but I liked the way you were talking about me and using me and petting me better than just holding your dick in my mouth.” Joel kissed my cheek and started petting my chest again, not realizing at all that Dean was now staring at us very confused from the kitchen.

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