Page 47 of Whatever You Want

“As long as you promise to stay with me,” he whispered into my neck. “Please, just me.”

How could this man break my heart and mend it back together at the same time?

I smoothed a piece of hair from his forehead. “This moment isn’t about anyone else but us.” I stood up and eased my top over my head. “Now take me to your bedroom.” His eyes heated as they trailed over my lace bra. The need to connect with him was growing stronger with each passing second.

He rose to his feet. I knew lust in a man’s eyes when I saw it, but there was something else too. There was an undeniable amount of emotion, strong enough that I could feel it in my bones.

“You are so beautiful.” My heart skipped a beat as he dragged his hands along the straps, pulling them down and freeing me from the material. Logan’s mouth closed over one of my nipples. He swirled the tip of his tongue over the peaks, taking his time with each one. My body arched into his, begging for more. I fisted my hands in his hair, bringing him closer. He cupped my breast. His thumb circled and teased over my sensitive skin. My head fell back in a gasp. It felt like I was about to have sex for the first time.

He brought his hand to the back of my head, tipping it back. My lips parted, his tongue slipped inside. He kissed me like a man who was dying of thirst and was on a hunt to quench it. How is it that he’s been in front of me the entire time, and I never realized it? How did I overlook him for all those years?

I reached my hand out, needing to feel him. His eyes followed my every movement as I slowly pulled the shirt over his head. He sucked in a breath as I trailed my hands up his chest. The pads of my fingertips ghosted along his stomach. He shuddered when they landed over his beating heart.

“I’m going to ask you one last time.” His breaths were uneven as he spoke. “Are you sure?”

“Yes,” I said without hesitation.

I held my breath, waiting to see what he would do. His patience was wearing thin, and whatever resistance he held on to disappeared when he scooped me up and carried me into his bedroom.

There was nothing uncertain about what was going to happen next. I laid her down on the bed and crawled over the top of her. From the first day I laid eyes on her, I knew I wanted her, but she belonged to someone else. Now she was mine, and I had to force myself to relax, to slow down so I could savor the moment.

My hand curled around her neck; her eyes fluttered closed from my touch. “This is your last chance.”

The last thing I wanted was to talk her out of this, but I wouldn’t be able to handle any regrets.

She swallowed, locking her eyes with mine. “The truth?”

I weaved my fingers through her hair, taking her face in my hands. “Always.”

“I thought I would have doubts, I don’t know how to explain it.” She paused. “There is something about you, about us that just makes sense.”

Inhaling deeply, I allowed her words to soak in. “I feel the same way. It feels like you get me. This thing between us may feel unexpected, but you’re important to me, and having you here means everything.”

I brought my head down to hers and brushed my lips to the corner of her mouth. Desperation like I’d never felt before had me eager to touch and claim her in places I only dreamed about.

My lips traveled across her skin, sucking and tasting, drawing out a shiver of need. We’ve only kissed a few times, and I already knew what she liked. She didn’t just like to be kissed on the mouth. She wanted to be kissed everywhere, her jaw, her neck, and especially behind her ear.

She traced her fingers down my chest. My breath hitched when they reached the waistband of my shorts. She undid the button on my fly, and I watched her hand disappear inside. The lightest feather of her touch had my pulse kicking up another notch. I’ve never had performance anxiety before, but I’ve never wanted to impress a woman so much in my life. I don’t remember wanting anyone like this, ever.

Her hands were on the move, traveling up along my shoulders before landing in my hair. She leaned forward, pressing her lips to mine. The kiss started off soft, but as I reached her ass to pull her into me, it became frantic. I pulled my lips away so I could feel her skin under my tongue. I wanted this moment to go on forever. There were so many things I wanted to say to her, but I knew it was too soon. She wasn’t quite there yet.

Tilting her face up so I could get a better angle, our eyes met, and my heart started to flutter. I knew that after tonight I would never feel the same again. Every fear I had about her being ready had me questioning if I should let things continue. I’ve had sex. Lots of sex. Great sex. But this was not just sex. This was intimate, even that wasn’t the right word for what I was feeling. But my brain cells weren’t working at the moment, so that was the best I could come up with.

I stood up and slid my shorts down my thighs. Her eyes widened when she saw how hard and ready I was for her. I quickly stripped off the rest of my clothing, not wanting to waste a single second. Ava did the same while keeping her gaze fixed on mine. There was a smart-ass comment on the tip of my tongue, but then I remembered that it’s been a while for her.

I peered down at the woman who has come to mean so much to me, struggling to make sense of this deep connection I felt toward her.

“I’m not strong enough to stop once we get started.” The emotion was thick in my voice as I laid it all on the line for her. “I want you, Ava. Not just for tonight, but you’ve got to promise me that it’s only me you see. I can’t be with you if your mind is on someone else. Do you understand what I’m saying?”

“Yes.” She cupped my face as I planted a leg on the mattress. “Now stop trying to talk me out of this. I know what I want, and it’s you.”

I fused my mouth with hers in desperation. Her hand went to the back of my neck, urging me on. My pulse raced, and my heart thundered in my ears.

I pushed her legs apart with my knee and slid my fingers into her warmth. I wanted her to feel every inch of pleasure I could provide. She tightened around my hand as I stretched and curled my fingers, searching for that spot that would make her see stars. I pulled away from our kiss, to study the reaction on her face. Watching her come alive under my touch was like witnessing every fantasy I ever had come to life.

I kissed along her jaw and ran my mouth down her neck. My hand moved to her breast, and the other roamed along her thigh. I darted my tongue out to lick her nipple and grazed my teeth along the peak. She bowed her back off the bed, and her cries filled the room. She seemed to like it, and I wanted to find every spot on her body that would give me that same reaction. I don’t think my dick could get any harder.

“God, Ava.” I trailed my hands down to her glistening arousal. Her lips were parted, her cheeks were flushed, she was hands-down the hottest thing I’d ever seen. “Do you have any idea how long I’ve waited for this? How bad I want you?”

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