No woman has ever set foot in there, at least other than Maggie.
It’s nice.
And I don’t like thinking about it being nice.
19
LUCY
I’m not the most amazing cook in the world, but I have a lot of fresh ingredients and the internet to search for recipes.
I stare at my phone, making sure I prepare the casserole precisely as the video shows.
I want this to be exactly right. I’m so upset that I scared off Court’s housekeeper. I tried to call after her, but I didn’t dare open the front door after she fled, as Matilda was determined to get out.
“Learning something new?”
Court’s voice is so close and so startling that I jump back from the stove, straight into his chest.
His arms go around me as he laughs. “Sorry. I’m stealthy. You okay?” He makes sure I have my footing before letting me go. He has socks and a pair of sneakers in one hand.
“Yes. I didn’t hear you at all.” I glance down at his bare feet. For the first time, I’m the one in shoes. I like it. He has strong man feet, sturdy legs, and bulging thigh muscles disappear into what appear to be workout shorts.
I’m staring.
I whip around to face the stove. “I need to put it in.” Oh, God. That sounds so wrong. “The casserole. Into the oven. It’s going in the oven.” I’m a stammering mess.
He doesn’t seem to notice. “Do I have time to hit the gym downstairs?”
“About an hour.”
“That’s perfect then.” He sits at the table, pulling on his socks.
I watch him from the corner of my eye, sprinkling shredded cheese on top of the casserole for the final step.
He stands. “I’ll be back.”
“Hey, can I get a clarification on something?”
He pauses by the end of the counter. He’s something, his hair askew, a fitted T-shirt stretching over his chest, the shorts. Those strong legs. I feel a little wobbly.
“Sure.”
“Matilda. Is she confined to the balcony?”
He shrugs. How can a shrug be so sexy? “You obviously let her in here earlier.”
“It’s just—you put away the books and albums, and it seemed like a few other things as though you expected her inside.”
“I did some basic goat proofing.” He glances around. “There’s probably more she could get into unsupervised.”
“Oh, I would never give her the run of the place. But if she’s sitting with me?”
“Sure. It’s not goat jail.”
I open my mouth to thank him, but he’s already gone. The front door opens, then closes.
It feels lonelier than it did before. I examine the spread of cheese on the dish, convinced that if only I make this perfect, everything will somehow work out between us. I’m not looking to be his wife or great love. But forging a light, easy relationship before the baby comes will help smooth things over when the paternity test shows the baby is his.