But now, I have a way bigger problem on my hands, and that is, Ted, finding out that I was pregnant with his twins—or that I lost them.

Because his present office was his dad’s own.

So, I’m sure the record of my childbirth and my babies’ death certificate will be in there, and in no time, he will find out.

“Shit,” I mutter as I sit upright. I need to do something before it gets too late. I start thinking, racking my brain on what I can do to prevent this disaster.

And like a light bulb that is turned on, I immediately have an idea.

I get to my feet, dropping Luna’s bunny beside her while she is peacefully sleeping and sucking on her thumb as I turn on the baby’s monitor before I leave her room and head to Ted’s.

I knock rapidly on his room door, impatient as ever, as this might be the only opportunity to execute my plan before it gets too late.

“Open the damn door already,” I murmur and raise my hand to knock again when the door pulls open, revealing a shirtless Ted.

That’s good. I’m sure he has no plans of leaving the house anytime soon. So, I put on my fakest smile and ignored the fluttering feeling in my stomach.

“Hi. Uhm, I need to go do something quickly in town. I’ll be back soon. I just need you to help look over Luna until I’m back,” I say, looking up at him.

“Oh, okay. No problem,” he says, his eyes lingering on me.

“Alright, I’ll be on my way now,” I say, quickly leaving him without awaiting his response.

My heartbeat accelerated to a thousand beats more, as I made my way into the hospital building.

What if I get caught? What if I don’t even get access to his office? The latter is most likely since he isn’t there.

He can as well have it on lock and be with the key for all I know.

I pass through the corridor, go to the stairs, and pray I do not get to bump into his father.

When I reach the floor where his office is situated, I quickly bend my head down, tilting my hat a bit to conceal my face.

I can’t risk anyone recognizing me at this moment. They’ll assume I’m here for Dr. Sam and inform him of my arrival.

I move briskly to his office door, looking around to see if there is anyone approaching.

As I see the clear coast, I take my hand to the doorknob and pull on it.

I let out a sigh of relief as the door gave in. It opened as I sneaked into the office and shut the door carefully behind me.

I quickly rush to the drawers on one side of the office. I suspect there are files I need there.

I scan through the labels on the drawers one by one, searching for the death certificate drawer so I can check for that of my babies.

Aside from the fact that I need to get rid of it, so Ted does not find out, I feel as though I also need closure. Something, anything that’ll make me feel a bit closer to my babies, so I can wholly and finally say goodbye.

It’s crazy enough that I did not even get to hold or see their dead bodies. Dr. Sam told me they were already buried before I could wake up and that he did not want to add more pain to the grief of losing them already.

That explanation he gave made so much sense then. Right now, I just want their death certificates.

“Phew. Finally.” I let out a sigh when I found the death certificate drawer.

I quickly pulled on it and began searching through the names one by one.

Nothing.

Okay, maybe I have been searching wrongly, I say in my head, and I begin searching through the files again, taking my time this time, going through every file until I get to the end again, and still, nothing on my babies.