Page 50 of Fixation of the Mind

Chapter 18

It's so warm here, was the first thought that cleared my brain. Blinking my eyes open, a light halo covered everything, the soft light giving my dark modern room a bit of liveliness. My hand went up, trying to catch those illustrious rays to no avail.

I made the mistake of looking at my hand for too long. Gabe’s face at the end of the gun, my hands shaking as I held it. I flinched, my stomach recoiled, and a familiar feeling rose in the back of my throat. Sitting up, I covered my mouth, refusing to throw up when the boys had worked so hard last night to take my mind off of all this.

A manly groan came from somewhere close. “Rin, fuck, you’re sitting on my dick, and it’s getting harder by the second.”

Jumping in shock, turning to see Roux’s face scrunched up in pain. His hands went to my hips. “If you're going to sit on me, at least have my dick between your cheeks.” Lifting me up with ease, he repositioned his long, hard length right where he said he would and gave a pleased sigh. “Yeah. Much better.”

I completely forgot that we’d crashed in my bed last night. While I could tell just how much better he felt once he started to move his hips, I wasn’t quite sure what to do. I glanced down to see Rion and Ravi on each side of us, all missing their shirts. When did that happen?

My face flushed, not used to seeing this kind of manly display first thing in the morning. It was actually kind of disorienting. I didn’t know which chest to look at. How could you effectively ogle three identical chests at once?

Ravi reached up, giving me a half smile as one side of his face was still burrowed in my pillow. “Rin,” he whined, twirling a lock of hair around his finger, “If you wanted some wake-up sex, you could’ve just said something.” Heat rose up my neck.

“Um… Uh…” I sputtered. Who could be prepared for this kind of talk first thing in the morning? I hadn’t even had coffee yet! Roux’s hands gripped me harder, applying more pressure against my center.

Ravi was suddenly sitting up, using the hair around his finger to tug my face to him. “I like it when you're at a loss for words, my love.” His lips captured mine, and I knew I was a goner.

He teased the seam of my lips with his tongue, his hand digging into my hair, pulling me to go deeper. As soon as a moan slipped from my lips, he took advantage, exploring my mouth with his hot tongue. I was already out of breath, and we'd barely kissed.

“Layrin.” I turned my face toward Rion’s voice. Ravi groaned in disappointment but continued to kiss my neck.

“Mmm?” The noise was the only thing I could say in return. Between what Roux was doing down below and what Ravi was doing up top, my mind was a little fried.

Rion was sitting up, glaring at his brothers like they were animals, before turning his piercing gaze on me. “Don’t let them push you. If you need more time, just let us know.”

Flashes of me clutching his chest as he soothed away my first nightmare hit me hard. I understood his hesitation. Normally, people would be broken and take longer to process everything, but I was tired of being upset, of feeling like everything was my fault. Deep down, I had felt that way all my life, and now I knew it was all a lie.

I knew that I should feel horrible about Gabe. I’d just murdered him with my own hands. I had done it for those girls that deserved a better life, seeing myself in them. I had done it for the guys, so their uncle wouldn't get between us. I had done it for myself, to prove I could live in this world.

I wasn't fine with killing him, but I refused to feel guilty about it. I just wanted to forget for the moment.

Shaking my head, my eyes flicked up through my lashes as I pleaded, “Make me not think about it. I just want to feel you… all of you.”

His normally thin-lined mouth slowly rose, then he leaned forward, speaking against my lips. “As you wish, my paramour.” Then he kissed me like he had been waiting for years to do it.

The kiss started off slow, kindling the feelings between us with each stroke, and soon we were in full devour mode. Hands in hair, teeth and tongues exploring, seeing what spots caused a reaction.

Ravi bit my neck, just as Rion gave me a low, throaty moan. My senses were going wild. I wasn't able to think or remember anything just feel and listen. Roux took that as a challenge and began to rub his thumb against my clit. The friction between my panties and that bundle of nerves was explosive, making me melt as pleasure filled my veins.

Rion’s hand cupped my heavy breasts as Roux’s fingers dug into my ass. Ravi was still kissing a trail up my neck, and I let my head drop backward, focusing on how they were making me feel. Tingles of pleasure erupted in each cell they touched, throwing me into pleasure overload until Rion pinched my nipples through my tank top.

My eyes flew open as I gasped. “Oh fuck.”

Roux growled from below, “That’s a good fucking girl. Look at how you shine above me.”

As if my body wanted to respond, my thighs trembled. The thin fabric between us grew wet, and Roux let out a low, painful moan. “Fuck, little minx. I need to be inside that wet cunt of yours.”

I nodded, running my hand down Ravi’s chest to flick the waistband of his boxer briefs. His hand grabbed my chin, yanking me to face him before our lips crashed together. With Rion already lifting one side of my shirt, wrapping his lips around my pebbled nub, I knew I would do whatever they wanted as long as we didn't stop. I never wanted this to stop.

A ripping sound bounced against the walls, and I gasped. My instinct pulled at me to look down, but Ravi’s grip grew tighter, taking my hand from his chest and shoving it beneath his waistband. My hand circled his silky, fat cock, slowly running it up and down as his lips broke from mine.

“Do you see what you make us do, love?” Like it was something they’d timed, Rion ripped my tank down the middle just as Roux dipped his finger into my center, and I wanted to gasp, but Ravi wouldn't let me. He wanted all of my attention at the moment.

His free hand circled over mine, pumping his cock with me. “Fuck, I love it when you touch me. Your eyes on me, your mouth against mine.” He dove in for another kiss, my lips matching his desperate movements. That dark voice in my head whispered, All of it. I want all of their attention. Feel only me, see only me.

Another ripping sound was followed by Roux’s deep rumble. “Get the fuck out of my way.” With Ravi controlling my chin, I couldn’t look down, but I felt Roux rub his thick shaft between my fleshy gates. Something shook the bed as his fingers carved into my thighs. I could hear his teeth grind out the words, “So fucking hot and tight. Waiting to be fucked.”

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