Her voice is so warm in my ear. My skin stings, but I’m so comforted that I don’t care what she does.
“There’s a whole world out there that you don’t know about. The world inside of your head. Embrace it, my darling. Open yourself, to me, to that voice inside your head I know you can hear.”
How does she know?
She lines the prosthetic up with my needy opening. It takes all of two seconds for me to realize what she’s about to do.
“Wait!” My face is up, my hands yanking against the bindings. “Pink. Pink!”
Ira stops. “What?” She’s growling, her fingers digging into my tender flesh as she’s poised to drive the Avalon inside of me.
Don’t get me wrong! I want that. Oh, I want it. I want to give myself over, but…
“Don’t refill it.”
I don’t hear anything for a while. Then, “I already have.”
“But…”
“I know why you’re hesitant, but those are my parameters.” She sounds so… frustrated. “You come into my bedroom, asking me to dominate you, and you don’t think I’m going to end this exactly the way I see fit? You knew my endgame the moment you clocked the exact model of my prosthetic.”
I open my mouth to speak.
“That’s not how it works. You’re here. You’re mine. I am going to make sure you know that you’re mine.”
I’ve never heard her like this before. I’m scared. Anxious. So fucking turned on. Almost to the point of losing reason. Almost.
“If you don’t experience everything I’ve fantasized about doing to you these past few weeks… there’s no point to any of this. You need to let go of every inhibition.”
She’s right. But I’m not ready.
“Please… Ira.” Do I sound pathetic enough?
“You know what? It’s fine, baby.” I hate it when people call me that. Yet I don’t hate her right now. She strokes my head, wrapping my hair between her fingers. “You can say no. I won’t force you. You can trust me.”
I heave a sigh of relief.
“But you will need to leave.”
“What?”
“You have your boundaries? So do I. You’re not the only one who gets to set some rules around here. We have a conflict of interest. You want it one way, I want another. Sorry. It’s a deal breaker right now.”
I can’t believe this!
“Unless, of course… you change your mind? What do you want more, Katie?” The sneer in her voice reawakens everything. Fuck me, it’s turning me on so much. My legs are spreading wider, ready for her, for this. Yet I’m shaking, because I have never in my life…
Felt anything like that before.
“Did you hear me? What do you want more?” The Avalon vigorously pushes against my sore ass. “To hold on to that part of yourself? Or me?”
She bites my ear, her tongue falling inside it, exploring my mind. Fuck me.
“I want you.” Who is this person saying this? Who is making my ass grind against her? Who is so hungry to feel everything inside of me, to make me hers in the way she sees fit? Oh my God, if she does that, then I really am submitting to her.
Oh fuck. Fuck! Fuck!
Is that what I have to do to enter that space? Do I really have to let her take me like that? She knows me too well. We’ve only been screwing for a couple of weeks, but she knows me well enough now to know that the only way to break me is to…