Page 50 of Mafia Don's Secret Baby

He smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes as he extended a hand. “I meant it when I said I wouldn’t fuck you in a bathroom, Lili.” With each breath, his control seemed to solidify. I could see the effort he put into his statement, and I felt myself going molten again as he stood there, staring at me as if I were his favorite snack. “Let’s finish the rest of this evening, and we’ll go home and talk.”

“You don’t have to be in control all the time, Matteo.”

With him standing so close in a fitted suit and two slick fingers, I didn’t think I was in control. Every ounce of me needed him. I needed him right here and right now, but he seemed set in his resolve.

He sighed and offered a hand. I took it and dropped from the sink, allowing the dress to cascade back down my legs.

“Oh, Lili,” he said, shaking his head. “With you, I have to work very hard to find control.”

Chapter Seventeen

Lilianna Genovese

Matteo kept his hand on my knee the whole way home, as if touching me was non-negotiable. Our mutual control had waned to a dangerous point. If left alone, we’d certainly act on our impulses right now.

I wasn’t sure if that was a bad thing.

We needed to wait. There was too much that needed to be discussed first.

“Can we start talking here, or should we wait until we get inside?” I asked.

“Meet me in the hot tub,” he said, looking me up and down before moving from the car and leaving me behind. The driver didn’t say a word as he waited for me to get out of the car through the door Matteo had left open, but I waited a moment.

How far would I let this go tonight?

Did I want to go all the way?

The physical part of me did. My body’s reactions begged me to take our relationship to the next level again. But logic told me to wait. Logic said that there were too many things I needed to decide on my own before allowing our physical relationship to influence me.

I was afraid we’d never go back if we came together again.

I pulled myself from the car and walked toward the building. A breeze tickled its way up under my dress and made me shiver. I tipped my head back and allowed the chill of the evening to wipe away the residual lust I’d been feeling.

I took my time as I made my way up to the penthouse apartment. I tiptoed into the room Callum and I shared, careful not to wake him as he slept peacefully in the bed. I grabbed the light green bikini I’d bought on my shopping trip. I slid the dress over my shoulders and allowed it to drop to the floor before replacing it with the bathing suit. I glanced in the mirror and found that the green fabric brought out the green in my eyes.

I moved out to the patio and went to the railing for a moment, looking over the expanse of the city. It looked so beautiful from this angle. It looked safe. The occasional car horn echoed quietly up here, but the sounds of the city weren’t as loud and consuming from up here.

Nothing could draw my attention fully from the man behind me.

“Are you planning to stay over there?” Matteo asked from where he lounged in the tub.

I shook my head and didn’t look at him. I couldn’t yet. Not until I had made my intentions clear. My core still throbbed with my yearning, and if I looked at him before I spoke, I didn’t think I’d be able to keep cool. “I can’t have sex with you tonight.”

He didn’t respond immediately.

“Just tonight?” he finally asked.

“For now, not tonight. You can convince me easily, and I need you not to do that. Not until I can wrap my head around…everything. I don’t think I can keep it purely physical this time, and I’m not ready for more.”

He exhaled deeply. “I won’t have sex with you, Lilianna. I give you my word.”

“Not even if I ask for it,” I told him, taking a deep breath. I couldn’t let my body make choices like this for me. When his fingers had been inside of me, I would have gone through with it. I would never have stopped myself. Even now, with the memory of his hands so fresh, I knew I wouldn’t be in control.

“I promise.”

I looked over my shoulder. “I thought you wanted to.”

Matteo smirked, his eyes going alight as he took in the entirety of my exposed body. His gaze lingered, and he clenched his jaw in restraint. “More than you realize.” He paused and sucked in a sharp breath as he shook his head. “Fuck, you have no idea. But I don’t make a habit of sleeping with women who don’t want me. You’re safe with me, Lili.”

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