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But I need more.

So much more.

I bounce her on my lap, sending a bolt of electricity into my gut.

“Oh God.” Her eyes roll back into her head. “That’s good.”

Her nails dig into my shoulders as I move my hips relentlessly. She starts to contract around my cock, gripping me in her delicious heat.

“Say my name when you come,” I demand, thrusting deeper inside her.

“Ethan,” she whimpers, and her eyelids flutter closed. She cries out, and I wish I could drink in the sound. Weave it into the fabric of my soul.

A dazzling clarity sparks inside my heart. In my relentless search for God all my life, this is what I was really seeking.

It’s always been her.

She’s my destiny, my purpose.

The ecstasy explodes within me like fireworks, and I let out a roar. My hands grip her hips, pulling her closer, deeper, harder into me. The world around me sparkles and blurs.

In what feels like an eternity later, she’s lying against my chest, her ragged breathing finally growing rhythmic.

“If you’re better on Friday,” I say, my voice hoarse, “I want you to come to my game.”

She swallows. “Yeah?”

“And you’re wearing my jersey.”

She’s quiet for a long while. “You don’t care what Noah thinks?”

“No,” I say immediately.

And I don’t. I’m done hiding. If God has really forsaken me, I have a new dream to fill the longing in my chest.

For now, I’m going to keep it.

I’m going to keep her.

I’ll tell Noah everything as soon as I’ve worked out with Lily what this really means for us. He’ll be angry. He might even end our friendship.

It will hurt. It will hurt badly, but I won’t give her up for anything.

“Okay,” she mutters.

I press my lips against hers, kissing her with a fervent desperation.

I love her. I love her more than I’ve ever loved anything in my life.

If she’s not my true salvation, may God strike me down.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Lily

Ethan is holding my hand under the restaurant table. It’s an innocent touch compared to what he did to me before we left his room today, and yet my belly is on fire.

We’re acting like a couple. In public.

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