“Yes,” I said. “That’s exactly right, Nikolai.”
“I…” He swallowed hard. “I never thought to ask for that myself, for some reason. Being around alphas all the time, there’s so much desire, so much need. I just wanted to fulfill that for them. But you…”
“I have desire,” I told him. “I have need.”
“Not to take, though,” he said. “To be taken. The energy’s different.”
I shrugged, shutting my eyes. “Sometime, Nikolai, I might like to take you.”
He laughed. “Oh, yes, please, omega.” He clucked his tongue. “Now relax and get your clit played with and come for your alpha like a good girl, hmm?”
“Yes, alpha,” I breathed.
“I just like looking at you,” he said. “I like the way your body looks. I like the way I can feel the little nub of your clit swelling up as I touch and rub it. I like the way your pussy pumps out that slick of yours. I like the way your breath hitches, omega. I just like affecting you.”
I sighed, basking in it. My entire world had honed down to one tiny spot, the very center of my pleasure. And as he played with me and coaxed me in his soft voice, the pleasure began to grow. It traveled out, all over my pelvis, growing sweeter and more intense.
“Are you ready to come, then, omega?” he said. “Would you like to come?”
“Yes, yes, alpha,” I said.
“But you’re going to need my permission, I think?” It was a question.
“Yes,” I confirmed, eager for that, for Nikolai to take command of me. Each of my alphas commanded me, but all of them did it in different ways. There was a gentleness to Nikolai, something soft, but it was compelling all the same.
“Yes, you’ll need that,” he said, running his fingers in gentle, clever circles around the most sensitive part of my body. “You want to be taken, and I want to take you, and it’s just easy. Everything fits, pretty girl. We can both relax.”
It was like with Dmitri, when I surrendered to him, but there had been so much conflict about that. I’d chafed against submitting to him in certain ways, because the force of his dominance was so intense and a little frightening. But I could sense that Nikolai’s essence was entirely different. He had boundaries that Dimitri didn’t, and I could surrender readily to him.
I relaxed. And as if I did, his fingers teased my pleasure until it tightened to a stiff peak, and I was pushed up into the sky, to bounce around in the clouds as my orgasm came for me, and I began to clench and clench. “I’m sorry,” I managed. “I know you wanted me to wait—”
“I wanted you to come, omega,” he countered. “I wanted your pleasure far more than I wanted your obedience.”
I sighed.
He kissed me, fingers pressing into me, not too much pressure, but just enough so that my orgasm could ebb out against him, so that I could get every last bit of it. He pulled away and smiled down at me, holding my gaze, waiting until the tremors stopped in my pussy. Then he carefully removed his fingers. He licked them, sighing, holding my gaze. “I’d like it if you’d take out my cock, omega. Would you like to do that?”
“Yes, yes,” I said, reaching down for his pants.
“Mmm, that’s a good girl,” he said, still lazy and pleased. He thrust his pelvis forward a little to give me access. “I have a very big knot for you, all for you. I’ve never knotted a pussy, you know that?”
“I didn’t know,” I said, unbuttoning him, unzipping him. In moments, he was in my hands, and he was big and thick and pretty and I could smell his concentrated alpha scent and I wanted to lick him. But I was worried. “You might not like it as much? I don’t know if I’ll be as tight as knotting an asshole.”
“Well, someday soon, I’ll knot you there, too,” he promised. “But tightness is not the only thing that makes a sexual experience pleasurable, you know? It would be impossible that you wouldn’t please me, omega, know that.”
I looked up at him, smiling. “You, too. All my alphas, being with each of you, you fill some separate part of me that needs each of you. Nikolai, I feel as if I’ve been missing you my whole life, but I didn’t know it was you that I was missing.”
“Odd,” he said. “I was thinking something very similar.” He kissed me, kissed me deeply and thoroughly.
I groaned. I pushed on his chest. “Okay, I want to go back to looking at you.”
He laughed, letting me have access to his cock.
I squeezed his knot in my hand.
“You have such tiny little omega hands,” he breathed.
“You just have a really big fucking dick,” I said.