“Well, you and Nikolai are basically like a swinger couple,” said Dmitri, rolling his eyes. “So, of course it’s all great and wonderful for you. You have that one other person—”
“You fuck Nikolai, too.”
“Yes, we have sex, but he and I don’t have the same whatever it is you two have,” said Dimtri, chagrined.
“Well,” said Corentin, “maybe it’s because you refuse to bottom.”
Dmitri turned to him, glaring.
I couldn’t deny what Dmitri was saying, I supposed. I did have a strong bond with Nikolai. Even though we were in a fight right now, I fully expected we’d make up and be stronger than ever. But when I’d been with Aurelie earlier that day, I’d felt very connected to her as well. I’d felt as if she and I had some kind of singular bond, something that was just ours, and it wasn’t exactly like what I had with Nikolai, of course. For one thing, it was very new, and she and I were still exploring it. But I felt the potential for it to become something just as strong. And here, after this, with Dmitri, surrendering so entirely to him, breaking for him and having him hold the pieces of me together… that had been incredibly powerful, and there was a connection being forged here too. But I was beginning to realize everyone else in the harem was not feeling this same kind of connection.
“We just need to give the connections space to form,” I said. “That’s all. You do have your own special thing with Nikolai, Dmitri. He gets something from you that he can’t get from me. I wouldn’t have been jealous of you and him weeks ago if that weren’t true.”
Dmitri shifted, lifting up his head and glancing down at me. “That’s right. You were jealous. Why aren’t you jealous anymore?”
I wanted to say something evolved and egalitarian, like that I’d learned that we were all connected or something, but the truth was: “I guess you just kind of abandoned him and paid all your attention to the omega, and I realized I didn’t have anything to be jealous of.”
“So, you realized we didn’t have any kind of special connection after all,” said Dmitri, laying his head back down.
“No,” I said. I thought about it. “Well, I guess it could sort of sound like that. But he worships you, Dmitri, you know that.”
“He doesn’t,” said Dmitri. “He ran off, and he said I was his ‘master.’ So, that’s not a relationship that’s about love, is it?”
“I mean, dude,” said Corentin, “you did just call yourself a dictator.”
“I can’t help that,” said Dmitri.
I snorted.
Corentin snorted.
Dmitri sat up in the bed and looked down at both of us. “Someone has to be the leader. The leader is always isolated. It’s fine. This is who I am. This is my role. I’m not going to have the same kind of relationships that the rest of you do, but what I do have is kind of amazing in its own way, I suppose. Being able to dominate, to care for each of you, it’s intoxicating. Maybe I need to learn to be satisfied with that.” He climbed off the bottom of the bed and began pulling on his clothes.
We both stared at him.
He was a very gorgeous man.
aurelie
WAS IT VERY fucked up to get hot for Nikolai being violent?
If it was, I was not sure that I cared.
There was something undeniable about his confidence and his skill. There was something about the way he moved, like a predator animal, like a sleek panther, cavalier and vicious.
When we finally got the car stopped and he ordered me into the backseat, I was already slick and eager for him.
He took his gun off and unloaded it, setting it on the front seat before he climbed back there with me. He stripped off his jacket and shirt and his bare chest was just as sleek and muscular as I remembered. I reached out to touch him and then stopped.
“May I, alpha?” I breathed.
He smiled down at me. “Oh, asking permission, hmm?” He bent down and kissed me, really kissed me, and I twined my arms around his neck and arched into his body, feeling like this was the culmination of something that had been slowly lurking in the background, and I hadn’t realized how much I’d been waiting for it.
He broke the kiss but stayed close. “There are a lot of ways this could go, sweet girl. I can bark at you and tell you what to do or I can be yours to command, or anything in between. I’m very versatile.”
“But what do you want, Nikolai?” I said.
He regarded me. “I want you, omega.”