Page 16 of Sinful Secrets

“Yeah, a play, made a move on you, kissed you?”

“Umm, he kissed me, and he has been kind and caring. He showed me how to shoot a gun too. And when I told him about wanting to make a cake, he made this happen.” I smile.

“Holy shit, he has it bad for you, and you have it bad for him!” Lily laughs.

“Just make sure you go at your pace, don’t let him rush you. That man is the biggest man whore I know. If he can keep his dick in his pants and wait for you, he has basically declared his undying love for you,” Rose states.

“Man whore?” I ask, confused by what she means. Daisy elbows Rose in the ribs and gives her a glance.

“He likes women, sweetie, like a lot, he has never settled down with one woman. To be honest, we never thought he would.” Trudy pauses. “But, sweetie, we have never––and I mean never––seen him like he is with you, with anyone else. Ever. You’re special to him, everyone can see it.” She smiles.

“I… I get these warm feelings in my chest and my stomach swirls when he is around. I don’t know what it means, I don’t know what I am feeling,” I admit. The margaritas are making it easy for me to talk openly and not feel embarrassed.

“You read that book I gave you?” Rose asks, and I nod my head. “She had feelings in that, she had those warm fuzzy feelings and then the guy gave her some extra amazing feelings.” Rose winks.

“Oh, for God’s sake, Rose, don’t confuse her,” Lily snaps. “Listen, you like him, listen to your heart and your body. Do what you’re comfortable with, Khan will follow your lead,” she says, squeezing my hand.

I'm still confused. “Follow my lead?” I ask.

“Right, that’s it, we need movies, it’s the only way to show what we mean.” Daisy stands and walks back inside the cabin before coming back out with a stack of DVDs and looks through them.

“Um, I don’t think we have time to watch all of those,” Patty points out.

“I know, I am going to skip through them, to the romantic bits and the good bits.” She smiles.

We watch one movie after another. I watch each declaration of love, the kissing, the touching. It feels so intimate. I feel like I shouldn't be watching their private moments, yet I can’t tear my eyes away.

“So, this is fornication?” I ask.

They nod their heads. “Yes, pretty much,” Trudy answers.

“And they are not doing it to create a child of God? They are enjoying it? They like it?”

“Yes, honey,” Trudy answers, but gets interrupted by Patty.

“Oh yeah, sex is so much more than just making babies. It feels incredible.”

“Eww, shut up, that’s our brother you're talking about.” Lily gags.

I nod, a feeling of doubt and insecurities seeping in. “But Khan has done this with women that have done this lots of times. I mean, why? Er, how am I supposed to do the same as them when I don’t know what I am supposed to do?” I ask, panicked.

“Easy there, tiger, we aren’t telling you to jump on Khan the first chance you get. We are telling you that that can happen if you’re ready and feel comfortable to. If he really likes you, and I really think he does, then he will wait and be patient. Just be you,” Lily suggests.

I let everything process in my mind, it’s a lot to take in. I'm excited and scared, wanting to try everything. My only hope is that Khan is willing to teach me.

Chapter Ten

Khan

I'm relieved to get out of the cabin. I need to breathe, I need space from Bambi. She is starting to get in my head, and I'm starting to feel things, things I never want to feel, things that I promised I never would.

We walk into the club and I take a deep breath and sigh. The smell of stale beer and pussy. “Home.” I sigh.

“Make the most of it because you’re back up that cabin in a couple of hours, brother,” Mammoth says, clapping me on the shoulder as he walks towards the bar. I follow him and he hands me a shot of whiskey. “Enjoy, brother,” he toasts. I down the shot, the liquid warming my throat.

“Don’t get wasted, church is in ten minutes!” Rip yells. I salute him whilst pouring another shot.

“So, what you going to about the bitch?” Mammoth asks. I pause my glass midair, turn to look at him, and the fucker bursts out laughing. “Yeah, you don’t like it when it’s on a woman you like. Huh?”

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