Page 128 of Chemistry: The Chemist

“Not a nigga alive will successfully break your heart and sleep peacefully at night as if that shit never happened. I think it’s time he got to experience what you dealt with… what you’re still dealing with.”

“I’m not.”

“Keep telling yourself that, baby, but when you’re ready to talk about it, you can sit on my sister’s couch.”

“Okay, maybe there is still some underlying pain there, but it’s not that big of a deal.”

“Every time you screen my calls, it becomes a big deal. The fact that you’re panicked if my time and attention aren’t devoted to you makes it a big deal. The way that you hold me at night as if I’m going to slip away and into somebody else’s pussy while you’re asleep makes it a big deal.

“How you tried to sabotage our shit before it even got started makes it a big deal. Instead of trying to piss me off by dipping and dabbing, I figured getting down to the source would help you begin to heal whatever this fuck nigga did. At least that’s what my therapist suggests.”

I hadn’t found a lie in his statement. I wished I had a rebuttal, but I didn’t. Though I’d completely blocked those memories, that hurt Adonis had caused, I hadn’t forgotten it. Daily, it was manifesting in my relationship with Chem.

Since Adonis, I hadn’t committed myself to another relationship out of fear history would repeat itself. Chemistry didn’t give me the opportunity to run from him. He was too addictive. Every change I got, I was running toward him with my mouth agape and my pussy drooling.

“So, we’re going to have a nice, quiet dinner in the room right over there. It’s soundproof. And together, we’re going to watch this niggas heart crumble.”

“Mmmmm. Mmmm. Mmm.”

Adonis sounded off as Chem’s driver handed him a device that he pointed at the wall. The bright lights lowered and a large screen appeared on the blank wall. A recording began to play. Baffled, I stood beside Chem waiting for instructions.

“A few weeks ago, Eden shared your name with me. Simultaneously, she shared that you were happily married with a wife and children. I put my boy Benny to work almost immediately. I was a bit taken aback when he reported back just three days later with your wife’s cell number, your home address, her office address, and an invitation to dinner on the one free night she has each week while you spend time with the kids alone.”

“Mmmm. Mmm.”

The guy I’d seen near my building on multiple occasions came into view. Shannon, who I’d learned was the woman Adonis had married years ago, stood in front of the camera moments later.

She’s an old friend.

Don’t worry about her.

I’m not fucking her Egypt.

Me and her are just friends.

I wasn’t with Shannon.

The lies came rushing back but were silenced when Chem’s voice rang out. Everything began to make more sense as he continued.

“That was two weeks ago. She’s been trying to give up that pussy ever since. Unfortunately, you weren’t staying with the children this week because you were set to catch an impromptu flight this afternoon for business and not return for three days. Because she couldn’t get to Benny, she told Benny to come over at eight when the children were sound asleep.”

Shannon wasted little time undressing. Completely naked, she climbed onto the bed and beckoned for Benny to join her.

“After picking her brain and learning her kinks, he discovered she’d always fantasized about having sex in the bed she shared with her husband while being recorded. In the event she discovered his work trips were not really work trips, and were in fact time spent with another woman, then after she won the custody battle, their home, and half of everything he made for the rest of his life, she’d send him that fucking tape.”

Chemistry laughed with a shake of his head. Adonis had grown silent, his eyes big as saucers as he peered at the large screen where his wife was stuffing her jaws with Benny’s dick. He wore no protection. Tears touched Adonis’ cheeks and the sobbing began.

“Luckily for you, I’m on your side, Adonis. You don’t have to wait to see what your wife is up to when you’re away on business. Because I’m showing you.”

She quickly made a mess of the act. Saliva trailed down her chin and began to drip onto the bed as she bobbed, allowing Benny to stroke her mouth, simultaneously.

“I don’t know, man. It doesn’t look like her first time putting another niggas balls in her mouth. She’s way too comfortable but I could be wrong. But, uh, I have no interest, so I’ll leave you alone. I have a meal waiting for me.”

By the hand, Chemistry led me in the opposite direction. Relief washed over me. Learning Adonis wasn’t allowed to speak and hadn’t been spoken to resolve the tension in my chest, but it didn’t clear me completely.

“Chemistry,” I called out to him as we entered the private room that was lit with candles and smelled divine.

“Yes, my love?” Tenderly, he bit into the strawberry he picked from the small fruit bar against the wall.

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