Chapter Seventeen
She couldn’t do this anymore. Sleep in their bed night after night while they reached for her repeatedly. It had been ten days already since the Dragons Peak ritual and while she spent her days with Cara, her nights belonged to them.
Slade would fuck her, with deep lazy strokes while she sucked both Cian’s and Lachlan’s cock into her mouth. They’d tease her mercilessly, squeezing the pre-cum from the heads of their shafts onto her waiting tongue until the morsels they gave her weren’t enough and she would growl her frustration at them, her whole body clenching tight to the point where Slade would slap the outside of her thigh because he wasn’t ready to come and her crushing his cock like that always made him come.
He’d pinch her clit and then caress her softly all over again before he filled her pussy with his seed. Eventually, Cian and Lachlan would take pity on her, thread their hands through her head, and come in her mouth but always with a warning for her not to swallow.
Not a single drop. They’d make her spit their cum onto the palms of their hands and then they’d spend way too long feeding their cum to her pussy, making her orgasm with such force she could hardly move and slept that way in their arms. Covered in their scent in their seed.
She couldn’t handle the times they made love to her. Their cocks filled her mouth. Her ass. Her pussy. Touching her with such wonder, tears filled her eyes for reasons she couldn’t understand.
But every time they touched her it became harder and harder for her. She’d tried to bypass the truth, telling herself she didn’t know what it felt like so how could she possibly be in love with them?
But she was. Unequivocally in love with them. From the first moment she had seen them something had happened to her heart, her soul. She’d been enthralled by them while being equally petrified of them. She hadn’t stopped thinking about them, not for one single second.
They were the men she had given her virginity to, the only men whom she wanted to touch her. She wrecked through her brain trying to find the psychology behind her feelings for them.
Falling in love with them had proven to be the most wrong thing she could have done. She knew that from the start, when they’d been prisoners in the Swan House dungeon. Why would she choose the most difficult men to love out of free will if she truly honestly didn’t love them?
Because she did. They were her world. Without them she would exist but not live.But the longer she stayed the more broken she became at the thought that they would never love her back. How could they?
She had to leave. She had to make them see that it was time to let her go.
The instant they walked into the bedroom, she spoke before she lost her nerve.
“You have to let me go. I can’t be here anymore,” she said, softly, tears tainting her voice.
“What do you mean, Alexandria?” Slade asked with such sternness it cut through her heart.
“I mean I want to leave. I want to go and find my own way. You got your revenge on my family. It’s over.”
“So why do you have to go?” Lachlan asked, frowning.
“Because it’s over,” she cried.
“You’re not answering the question properly, Alexandria,” Cian said.
“When you look at me, you see me as the daughter of Swan House. You see me as they person who belonged to the family that ruined your life. That could have killed you. That took Cara from you in such a brutal way… How can you not see all that when you look at me?” She still wasn’t being clear, but short of telling them she loved them, and that them not loving her back was enough to destroy her entire universe, was not something she wanted to say out loud.
She didn’t want them to laugh in her face. Or maybe that had been their plan all along? Make her fall in love with them then tell her surprise, now you have to suffer for the rest of your life.
She couldn’t bear to hear those words any more than she could bear to stay and suffer in silence in their presence because they could never love her back.
“Alexandria, when we annihilated every single know Swan, striped them of their pride, reduced them to nothing, our job was done with them,” Cian said. They had promised her they wouldn’t kill her parents and for that, she would be forever grateful but where were they going with this?
“When we decided to reclaim Dragons Peak as one of the four most powerful families in the world, do you think we would have chosen a woman with a Swan House bloodline in her veins?”
Alexandria frowned.
“We wanted to reclaim our heritage. We wanted Dragons Peak next generation to be pure and untainted,” Lachland said. “The woman who gave us our sons and daughters had to be perfect in every fucking way possible,” he added.
“She had to be perfect, Alexandria.”
“She had to make us weak in the fucking knees,” Cian said.
“She had to make me smile by just thinking of her,” Slade said.
“She had to fit perfectly in our hands, against our bodies.”