Page 104 of Tulips and Lost Time

“Babe…” My heart shudders in my chest. Her blind faith, far more powerful than any other words she could toss my way. “It’s not?—”

“I’m on birth control. And you’re claiming forever.”

I choke out a desperate laugh. “Yeah, well?—”

“We’re both clean. You love me and I love you.”

“You’re a virgin, Kari. And you’re not even demanding protection.” I release my cock and fold over her until my forehead rests against her chest. “You’re giving too much away.”

“Luc?”

I swallow the lump lodged in my throat and close my eyes. “Yeah?”

“Six years. And you’re gonna make it weird if you force me to convince you.” She slides her fingers into my hair and grabs on tight enough to make it sting. Dragging my head up, she waits for our eyes to meet. “If you make me ask, then we may as well stop. I can’t feel good about myself if I have to beg you to?—”

“To take advantage of you?” I lean closer and press a kiss to the center of her lips. “You don’t want to have to beg me to take your body and soul and lock them away for the rest of our lives?”

“I want you to want me,” she whispers. “So much, that you can’t even stop and think. I want you to have me. And then I want you to keep me.”

“Fuck.” I drop my face to the middle of her chest and reach down to circle my cock. “Just say stop when you need me to stop.” I kiss her warm flesh and bring my tip to her fiery opening. She’s like lava, and I’m not sure I can take the heat. “Tell me to stop, okay? I’m begging you to?—”

“I trust you.” She cups my face and drags me up. Her eyes glisten with moisture. But they don’t spill over. They don’t break my heart like they have so many times over the years. “I trust you, Luc. It’s gonna be okay.”

“Fuck. Okay.” I lick my painfully dry lips and reach down to grab her leg. I hitch it higher to make room for my thighs, then I nudge, so fucking carefully, the head of my cock into her warmth.

Instantly, she realizes this isn’t the same as her dildo. Immediately, her breath comes to a stop and her eyes widen.

“It’s gonna hurt, Bear.” I roll my hips and give her just a little more. “The stretch will sting. Are you sure?—”

“Don’t ask.” She drops her head back and slams her eyes closed. But I see the way they roll in pleasure first. The way they express desire. “Be bossy. It’s easier for me.”

“Fine.” Fuck. “Fine.” I rock a little closer and grit my teeth when her vise-like grip is enough to destroy me. “You’re so fucking tight. So tight and perfect.”

“Luc…” She swallows, so the movement is visible in her neck.

“You’re doing so good.” I give her more and feel like an asshole when she hisses. But I slide my tongue over the line of her collarbone. “You can take all of me, Bear.” A little more. “You can do it.”

“Oh god.” She abuses her lip between her teeth and bites down until her skin turns white. “Luc?—”

“You’re so perfect.” I take her lips with mine, saving hers from her teeth and a scar she won’t like. Then I nudge a little more in and choke out a breath of desperation. My balls tighten and beg for release. Already. So easily. Because she’s so tight. “You’re so wet. So needy.”

“You can push in a little more.” Opening her legs wider, she draws a long breath and forces herself to relax. “You’re really not as large as you think you are.”

I bark out a laugh that I know would get me in trouble if my sister wakes in the next room. But I bring my focus back to Kari. To her playful expression and smart mouth. Her cheeks flame and her eyes dance. She wants to be sassy, so I give her what she asks and slide in until she’s taken me all and her breath hitches painfully. She draws a long, fast gasp, but to stop the sound escaping, I slap my hand over her mouth and accept her biting teeth as punishment.

“I hope you like what I’ve got, Bear.” I rock a little faster now to lubricate myself with her previous release. “Because this is the only cock you’ll ever know.” I groan as she tilts her hips and mewls. “I’m not leaving now that I’ve finally got you back.”

She wraps her arms around my shoulders and whimpers when I speed up, digging her nails into my back and marking my skin. “Oh god. That feels so… Ah.” She whimpers, part pleasure, part pain. “So good.”

“Filled you right up.” I hook my hands under her back and around to her shoulders. Then I slam forward and hold her to me so she can’t escape along the bed. “You’re doing so good, baby.” I close my eyes and pray, I fucking hope, not to come too soon. “So fucking good.”

“It doesn’t hurt so much anymore.” She lifts her legs and wraps them around my hips. “Go a little faster.”

“And you said you couldn’t be bossy.” I crash my lips over hers and suckle on her tongue, groaning when she cries into my mouth and breathes all the way down into my lungs. “You’re doing amazing.” I move faster. Faster, until it’s a piston that draws me perilously close to the edge. “So fucking amazing, Bear.”

She crushes her eyes closed and scrapes her nails along my back. “I’m gonna…” She moans. “Luc, I’m gonna?—”

“Jump.” I move faster and hold my fucking breath. Anything, to keep myself on this side of the line. “You can jump, Bear. I’ll be right here, ready to catch you.”

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