Page 96 of Your Side of the Offense

"Nice," I remark on her new peaks, and she rolls her eyes. "How are you guys?"

"Still thuggin', you know how it is," nana answers and I sigh very loudly.

"Come on, sister, you know the pimp life."

"Blue, don't let her influence you. You have the potential to be cool," I say and they both chuckle.

"Well, come on, my feet are killing me standing here." Nana urges us to the doors.

We both hook our arms in each of hers and head to the Uber.

"I can't believe you still don't drive.” Blue shrugs. “Why did you ask Dad to not buy you one again?"

"Because there's literally Uber everywhere. Driving is for peasants." I assert.

"That's my baby." Nana smiles.

"When I turn 16, I'm getting Dad to buy me a car."

"It will suck for you when you become the designated driver, and the chauffeur for your friends."

"Nah, they'll have their own cars, and we will switch."

We walk out and get in our Uber, and head home to yams and oxtail, one of my favorite meals in the world. And the worries of my life fade away the further we drive to our home. I don't remember any of the heartache from my new life by the time we jump out of the car.

After setting my bags down, I check my messages before I freshen up for dinner.

Logan: I'm thinking about you.

That is his only message.

Archer: Say hi to nana for me, and get some well-deserved rest, sweet peach.

I smile a sad smile. After everything with Logan, I honestly don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. But maybe I will get some clarity being here.

Caleb: I think we need to talk when you come back.

This is all getting a little overwhelming.

Jaden: You naughty naughty girl.

I laugh at that. It doesn't surprise me that they Jaden. He was the only one left in the dark. So, they all know. No more sneaking around in the darkness. I really need to figure out what the fuck it is I'm going to do and soon.

As usual, there's nothing from Harvey. Out of all of them, he has kept his distance most. It's like he gave up on us.

What are you saying, Su? There is no 'us.' He cheated, remember?

But I can’t help but wonder what he thinks, how he feels about everything. Does he still want me? Is it possible that there could be an us again? Can I allow that? What would it take for me to accept him again without remembering how he held her face as he smiled at her like he did to me? I get that picture in my head every time I try to conjure a path to forgiveness for him.

"Stop talking to boys and come eat."

I find nana at the door and I don't know why but I can't fake the smile I was going to, and I feel sad, especially being home.

She frowns. "What's wrong, Susu?"

I shake my head, trying to swallow the emotions clawing up my throat. "Nothing."

"That serious then?" She closes the door then sits next to me on the bed.

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