Page 45 of Love's Hot

“No. Not a chance. Cheeky, definitely.” Starting to find a way out of the melancholy I’m feeling, I try to throw back at him. “When did we have fun?”

“Oh, you did not just say that. You are in big trouble, Red. Big, big trouble!” He roars laughing down the phone.

“Why, what are you going to do? Spank me for being naughty?” I can do this. I can be the vixen and keep the touchy, feely Lilly locked away.

“You have no idea what you’re in for tonight, Red. No fucking idea how much fun, punishment and hardcore fucking we’re doing. All while you’re cuffed, helpless on my bed. The one you’re desperate to get into again. Let’s see after tonight how much you love my bed. Be prepared to come like you’ve never come before.” The wolf has shown up now, and all my worries are squashed. He always takes me to a place where I don’t need to think. Kane is in control and that’s what I love.

I never imagined I would want to be dominated sexually but he has awoken something deep in my soul.

Now I can’t imagine my life without Kane, my Wolf, and the places he takes me, and the pleasure he gives me there.

If this is all I can have then I’ll happily take it.

I’ll be his Red.

18

Kane

THIS IS WHY I don’t do relationships. This shit plays with your head and has you strung up tighter than you imagined. I feel like my balls are in a vice, and every time I see Lilly, she just turns the handle a few more twists. That woman could have me on my knees saying yes ma’am if she really knew how much she affects me. I tried to steer her away from the mushy thoughts last night, and back to the hot sexual feelings we stir in each other. Ending the phone call with her screaming my name and my hand firmly attached to my cock while I make a mess was one hell of a distraction.

The trouble with pushing our sexual connection to new heights is that there are these underlying feelings we’re both trying to deny. To be honest, I’m the one denying them and even worse I know the time is coming where I’m going to have to step away and that’s going to be tough. I’ve got to keep reminding her this is just a bit of fun.

Fuck buddies.

That’s what we are. That’s all we can be.

“Oh, shit. What’d you do that for?” I stop running on the treadmill and rub the back of my head where Xavier has just whacked me.

“Because whoever the chick is you’re dreaming about, she must really have you on the hook. I called you three times and you just ignored me. You’re warm enough, now get over to the punching ball and give me ten minutes going through the normal routine.”

I walk over to where he’s pointing, trying to clear my head.

“So, who is she, anyway? You’ve been a bit quiet this week. Haven’t seen you much. Too busy buried in pussy?” His stupid grin tells me he’s baiting and ding, ding, ding he’s a winner.

“Don’t you ever talk about Lilly like that!” I growl and then it hits me. Oh fuck, what’ve I done.

Xavier looks at me stunned, slowly blinking three times.

“Holy fuck. You’re fucking Lilly, aren’t you? You sneaky, little rat.”

“Don’t you dare tell anyone and that includes Alesha. Got it?” I’m literally yelling at him while I’m mentally smacking myself around the back of the head. “No one can know. There are things happening that are about to make this messy.” Now I’m rambling like a girl. “I just can’t explain everything, but please, I need you to keep this to yourself. She’ll kill me.”

Xavier has gone from shock, to laughing, to a serious face, trying to work out what the hell I’m going on about.

“You need to take a breath, man, and slow down. I think we need to skip the session in here and grab a coffee and walk. You have some explaining to do and I have a feeling some work shit to get off your chest too. We can’t do it in here. Let’s go.” Not taking no for an answer, he’s pushing me towards the café to grab our coffees.

All I can think about is Lilly and how she’s going to be pissed that Xavier knows. He just caught me off guard on a morning where my head’s messed up. I should know better. My job depends on me never saying things without thinking about what’s coming out of my mouth. Do that sort of thing on the job and you can get someone killed. Or even yourself for that matter. Maybe he’s right. I need to unload some of this to straighten out my head. I just don’t know if it’s even possible where Lilly is concerned. She has barreled in there and is digging in her fuck-me heels and wants to stay. She doesn’t plan on going anywhere. God help me.

We walk the first five minutes without a word between us. Xavier knows what I need. Space to filter and then I purge what needs to come out. Maybe I was meant to blurt that out before. Time to unload, which I haven’t done in a while.

“Okay, so like I said, you can’t tell anyone but yes, Lilly and I are having a bit of fun. No attachment, just a friends-with-benefits thing. Mutually beneficial without the bullshit of a relationship.”

“You’re fuck buddies then?” When Xavier says that it makes my skin crawl, yet I’ve been saying it all along and thinking it’s funny.

“Watch it.” I’m giving him that look. The one that he knows means back off.

“Pretty touchy for no attachment. Just saying.”

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