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“I can fucking drive.”

Noah grabbed his arm and pulled him toward Noah’s Mustang. “I wasn’t asking. Get in the fucking car, Cooper.”

He was surprised when Cooper did as he said. Coop slammed the passenger door behind him, as Noah climbed into the driver side. Noah revved the engine, his tires squealing as he peeled out of the parking lot.

The inside of the car was silent, thick with tension. Neither of them said a word as Noah sped home. The second he pulled into the driveway, Cooper was out of the car, the window rattling when the door hit.

Noah was going to kill him.

He was out of the car right behind Coop. Noah’s hand shot out to catch the door to the house as Cooper tried to slam it behind himself. It stung his hand but he ignored it.

“You’re acting like a fucking kid.”

Pacing the room, Cooper didn’t reply. The heavy fall of his steps and the flex of his muscles shouldn’t be sexy, but God dammit it was.

“What the hell is your problem?” Noah crossed his arms. “I was in your bed every fucking night, Cooper. You’re the one who kicked me out of it. You’re the one who said you couldn’t do this, and now you’re going to throw a temper tantrum because I’m not sitting around and waiting for you?” Not that he’d planned to have anything with Wes, because he hadn’t. But if he had, it was none of Cooper’s damn business.

“You think I don’t fucking know that?” Coop shouted. “You think I wasn’t telling myself to chill the fuck out, the whole time? That I didn’t know you had a right to be with him? That I don’t realize it’s my own fucking weakness that leaves me aching for you every fucking day? I know that, Noah.”

Noah hated admitting it, but his heart went crazy. His dick got hard. Christ, he ached for Cooper too.

“But my uncle…I owe him—”

“Fuck your uncle. You made the decision. I don’t blame you for it because I know this comes with a whole set of problems you’ve never had to deal with, but you still fucking made the choice, Coop. And, I won’t wait around for you. I won’t be my father, wanting someone who only wants them when it’s convenient. I’m not here to play fucking games, man. I don’t do the back and forth shit. We’re in or we’re out.”

He’d witnessed that too many times. His mom loved his dad when she messed up, when he threatened to leave her, but she seemed to forget that love when it suited her.

Cooper took a step toward him. Then another. “I don’t only want you when it’s convenient. I want you all the damn time!” Another step. Then another. “Jesus, I jack-off thinking about you, and I remember what it felt like to be in your mouth and how you tasted in mine. God damn you, Noah. Damn you for making me want you. For the fact that my eyes are always on you, and my mind always with you.”

He stood so close to Noah now, he felt the other man’s breath.

“Damn you for making me jealous when I’ve never been fucking jealous in my life. For knowing I would have gone bat-shit crazy if you didn’t walk out of that bar with me tonight, just like I would have lost it if you didn’t find me in the woods all those years ago.” A muscle ticked in Cooper’s jaw. Anger in his eyes. Anger at himself, or Noah, he didn’t know. But Noah saw something else there too…desire.

“Damn you for making me want you too, Coop. For making me want to keep someone off that edge when I’ve never cared about being that person for anyone else before. Just. Fucking. You.”

Noah went to push around him, but Cooper blocked him. Before he realized what was happening, Cooper shoved him against the wall, his mouth coming down hard on Noah’s. They battled each other, fought each other for dominance. Noah pulling Cooper closer, Cooper doing the same to him. Their tongues each trying to probe, to gain control of the hard, wet kiss. Their bodies collided, grabbing and grinding as though they were starving for each other.

What am I doing?

Noah grabbed Coop’s face, pulled him again. The other man’s chest heaved heavy with breath. “You decide now, Coop. You’re in this or you’re out. No more games. No more changing your mind. You touch me again, and you won’t have a choice. You’ll be mine.”

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A blast of heat shot through Cooper. A shiver raced down his spine. He wanted that. Wanted to be Noah’s, and Noah to be his, so fucking bad, he thought he would go crazy without him. He wanted to fuck him. To own him, and for none of the other shit to matter. He’d make none of the rest of it matter.

“I tried. I tried so damn hard not to want you but I couldn’t do it. I don’t understand it. My brain keeps telling me it’ll go away but then I look at you and I don’t want it to.” Cooper grabbed Noah’s face as well, a hand on each cheek. “It scares the fuck out of me, Noah but that fear doesn’t have anything on seeing that bastard with you tonight. It doesn’t have anything on my need to make you mine.”

Cooper covered Noah’s mouth with his own. He let his tongue slide between Noah’s lips. Noah’s hands immediately went to Coop’s ass, pulling Cooper against him so their cock’s rubbed together.

Coop pushed his hands under Noah’s shirt. Pulled it up, separating their mouths just so he could get the damn thing off. Before the shirt hit the floor, he rasped his tongue over Noah’s pierced nipple. “Jesus, this is so sexy. Damn you for being so fucking sexy.” He shoved himself hard against Noah. The bitterness in his own voice made Cooper see red. He shouldn’t be pissed at Noah because of how he felt. He shouldn’t be pissed at all but the anger was there, intertwined with the need, alternating which one gained control at any moment.

Noah’s hand slid around and covered Cooper’s erection. “Make up your mind. Are you mad at me, or do you want me? You feel like you want me, Coop. I know you do. Does it get you hot that you can take your anger out at me? That you can be rough with me? Maybe you’re not really pissed that you want to fuck me, you just like that you don’t have to go easy on me.”

There was some truth to that. Noah’s strength turned him on. The fact that they matched each other in so many ways, turned him on. He never thought he would find something like that, so…erotic.

“Fuck you, Noah. Fuck you for turning my whole world upside down.” As he spoke, he thrust his hips, let his dick rub against Noah’s hand.

Coop’s fingers went to the button on Noah’s pants but the other man stopped him. “I didn’t come to screw things up for you. I never wanted that for you… but I can’t be sorry for it either. Not when it brought us here. You can use me if you want. Take it all out on my body, Coop. I can take it. I want it all from you.”

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