Page 26 of Salacious Desires

When I turn back to Jillian, I have to blink several times to keep the happy tears gathering in my eyes from falling. It’s sad to say, but this might be the happiest day of my life. And it’s all because of him.

“Drake, I can’t believe you did all of this for me. I’ve…I’ve never felt so beautiful.” For about the hundredth time since getting out of the salon chair, I touch my highlighted locks and smile.

He leads me out of the spa and opens the passenger door for me. “We’re not done yet, pretty girl. The day has just begun.”

When he gets into the driver’s seat, I turn my head to look at him. “Can I ask a question?”

“You can ask me anything you want. I might ask you questions in return, though.”

“You’re a Dom, right?”

He stills for a second before he turns toward me, his gaze piercing. “Yes. I am. I have been for a long time.”

I feel a bit silly that I asked. It’s pretty obvious, but I wanted to hear it from him. Instead of saying anything, I nod and smile.

“My turn to ask a question,” he says as he drives out of the parking lot. “What do you think about everything you’ve been seeing at Edge?”

Shoot.

Staring down at my beautifully painted nails, I try to figure out how to explain my thoughts. He doesn’t pressure me or speak, it’s as if he knows I’m gathering myself.

“I didn’t know what BDSM was when I first started. If someone had told me about it, I’d have thought it was something like what I lived through in my past. But in the short time I’ve been at Edge, I’ve seen so much beauty in submission. It’s trust and respect given on both sides. The submissives aren’t doormats. It’s almost like it’s a relief for them to submit. And honestly, I think I can understand why. If I’m being honest, though, it also scares me.”

He reaches over and holds his hand out for me, giving me the power to make the choice. I don’t have to think twice about it before I slide my fingers into his palm.

“Why does it scare you, baby?”

“I think because I was submissive to my ex-husband, and he didn’t treat me well.”

“Lily, what happened to you was abuse. You were forced. That is completely different. Being in a BDSM relationship is always a choice. There are rules. limits, and sometimes even contracts stating what is and isn’t allowed. And there is always a safeword that can be used.”

Nodding, I try to wrap my head around what he’s saying. “So even though the submissive gives up control, they still have control if they need it?”

“The submissive has the ultimate control. Submission is given, not taken.”

“When I think of someone being dominant, I think of bossy. You’re not super bossy, though.”

Drake chuckles and kisses the back of my hand. “Really? Me forcing you to take a break, eat, drink water, get your nails and toes done, and your hair styled, none of that is me being bossy?”

My core tightens. I guess he has been bossy. And I’ve liked it. I’ve liked all of it.

“But isn’t the submissive supposed to serve the Dominant?”

“At times, if it’s something they agreed upon beforehand. I’m more of the type of Dom to make sure my submissive is taken care of and give her rules and guidance to help her be the person she wants to be. In the bedroom, I might demand she serve me in some sexy ways, but I’d also do the same for her.”

In the bedroom. What would he be like in bed? I’ve seen a dozen men completely naked at the club this past week, but I’m betting none of them compare to Drake.

“I’m going to ask a question and I want an honest answer, understood?”

“Yes, Sir.”

Shoot. That keeps slipping out so easily. Maybe it’s because of the way he looks at me when I call him that.

“Did you like me forcing you to take a break last night? Did you enjoy me ordering for you and feeding you? Are you enjoying what we’re doing today?”

“Yes.” I don’t have to even think about it because the last however many hours have been amazing. I’ve felt cared for in a way I’ve never known.

“That, Lily, is submission and dominance. You gave me your submission last night, and I dominated you. Every relationship is different. In this lifestyle, each couple customizes their relationship to their individual needs.”

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