Page 21 of Curvy Nerdy Omega

He chuckled, shocking me back into silence.

“You’re still stuck on that, huh?” Cas set me down on the sink in an unfamiliar bathroom and leaned into me.

I gasped, remembering the way Liam had kissed me like this after what happened at Bite, but Cas just grabbed something out of the medicine cabinet. I felt my cheeks heat when I realized he wasn’t going to kiss me and tried not to feel disappointed.

This was ridiculous. I needed to get my shit together.

“Suppressants.” Cas popped one in his mouth before holding one out for me.

I waited until he swallowed before opening my mouth, letting him set the tablet on my tongue so I wouldn’t have to let go of him.

His eyes narrowed but he placed it on my lower lip, eyes flashing with hunger before it disappeared like it was never there. “Such a brat, aren’t you?”

Before I could respond, he pulled me down and shoved me toward the shower. “Now go in there and get clean.”

I glared at him despite the yawning pit of despair building inside without one of them touching me.

“There are scent blockers in the medicine cabinet. Once you’re done, I’ll do the same and then we’ll put on fresh clothes with as little scent on them as possible.”

“What then?” I demanded, crossing my arms over my chest to keep myself from reaching out for him. “I still feel like?—”

“Don’t.” Cas clenched his jaw and ran his hand through his hair. “Don’t finish that sentence. Please.”

So, he really was shoving it all down, even now?

“How are you doing it?” I took a step closer. For some reason it felt like I could understand if I could just see what he was doing. “You even have the taste of my slick on your tongue and?—”

“Lucy!” Cas nearly ripped the hair out of his head. His arms fell to his sides and he cracked his neck, eyes on the ceiling instead of me. “Stop being a brat and get clean.”

He turned away from me then and started digging in the medicine cabinet. The muscle in his jaw kept flickering but I didn’t smell a single drop of anger or even desire with the air purifier on full blast like this. All I could smell was what we’d done in the basement.

Ripping off the hoodie, I tossed it to the floor and turned on the shower.

If he could do it, then so could I. All I had to do was learn. I might never be as good as he was at it, but this was a valuable skill for an omega to have – a skill that could save my life.

Turning on the water, I gritted my teeth against the ache between my legs. I stepped inside the shower, not waiting for the water to warm up. I inhaled sharply against the shock of ice-cold water against my overheated, sensitive skin.

It was excruciating, but I gritted my teeth and forced myself to bear it.

Cas was banging around in the bathroom, setting things on the toilet as I scrubbed my skin with the soap that erased pheromones like they’d never been there. It didn’t help with the ache or the burning sensation, but it did help clear my head a little.

The trick was breathing? I took a deep breath of damp air full of the soft scent of the soap. Some of the trembling in my limbs eased, but that was it.

He’d said it was like burying your emotions which meant the feeling wasn’t going to go away, but I could hide my reaction to it. I was still going to feel like this even if I figured out how to keep my reactions from being reflected in my pheromones.

Well, that was better than nothing.

If I could keep my pheromones from seeping out the same way he did, I wouldn’t have to worry about anyone else scenting it. It wasn’t going to be easy. If it was, everyone would be able to do it, but if I could figure this out.

Then I wouldn’t affect Cas and Liam the way I was now. They weren’t in control of their own feelings. Because of me.

“Whatever you’re thinking, stop it.”

I jumped at the sound of his deep, growly voice and the command in it. Cas glared at me through the glass door and I had no idea what to even say.

“Stop assuming we don’t care about you, little omega. It’s really pissing me off.”

And yet, I couldn’t scent his irritation at all.

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