Page 55 of A Kingdom of Broken Bonds

I shift into a kneeling position and reach up to press a long kiss to his lips. It is deep and passionate and shows him exactly how I feel for him. My hands caress his face gently as our lips move, and somehow, the motion seems to help restore some of my strength. It makes no sense, but with each kiss, I feel stronger. My whole world has narrowed down to the feel of the male beneath my hands, my lips, and his scent surrounding me in a heady, addictive perfume that washes away my pain.

An awkward sounding cough comes from somewhere in the room, footsteps following it as though they are backing away. “I should, um, give you guys some space,” Felix says.

Breaking through the fog of desire, I gasp for air and turn my upper body to find him, an immediate sense of panic racing through me.

“No, Felix, wait,” I call out before I even realise what I am doing or what the potential repercussions of my actions could be. All I know is that if he walks out that door, it will irrevocably damage our relationship. He needs to know that I love him and want him just as much as Eli. It is easy to get caught up in the pull of the bond, yet that does not take away my desire for him. He was the first male I ever felt attraction to, and he has stayed by my side as my friend all these years.

Thankfully, Felix stops his retreat, looking at me with a soft smile that tells me he’s okay with this situation. He is not offended that I am going to pick Eli over him. I might not have a mate bond with him, but I am able to read him just as well. He genuinely thinks that, and he is willing to step back so I can be happy with another male.

No. I will not let him believe that. I just need to work out a way to make this work harmoniously between the two males so it does not put a strain on my relationship with Eli.

Taking a deep breath, I tilt my head up to focus on Eli. He is watching me questioningly, but as I scan his face, I see it is without judgement, so I take the plunge.

“Felix loves me and has loved me for a long time. There is no bond holding him to me, yet he stays by my side despite the difference in our rank,” I explain, begging him with my eyes to understand. “I love him, Eli, and I could never choose between you.”

What I’m saying is dangerous if the wrong ears hear me, because I am going against everything we have been taught about mates. You have one mate, and you are completely tied to them, never so much as looking at another male or female with lust. Not only have I done that several times now, but I also survived a mate bond being severed and I love someone who has no mystical ties to me.

I think it has been pretty clear during this healing period that Felix means more to me than just a stable hand or friend. He has hardly left my side, only leaving to check on the horses and to feed. He is just as dedicated to me as Eli is and has proved his loyalty time and time again.

Thankfully, Eli is truly another part of my soul and can sense how much he means to me. The golden symbols on his face crinkle as he smiles and cups my cheek softly. “I would never ask you to, my heart.” He presses a kiss against my forehead, soothing me just with his presence. “There are so many facets to you, and he can offer you something I cannot. In the fae lands, we believe that everything happens for a reason. He has been placed into your life for a purpose.” Pulling back from our embrace, he glances at Felix, smiling at him as he gestures to the door with a tilt of his head. “Shut the door and make yourself comfortable.”

My brows rise. Wow, I was not expecting this. Felix seems just as stunned, but when his eyes shift to me, there’s determination in them. He seems to change, something about him almost shifting as he shuts the door and stalks forward, crawling up onto the bed with a grace I have never seen in him.

Moving behind me, he places his hands on my body and gently turns me towards Eli, pressing himself against my back. Eli seems to immediately understand what the other male is doing and closes the gap between us.

I am sandwiched between the two men I love, and for the first time since Havoc broke our bond, I do not feel pain. My mind starts to go into overdrive as I begin to overthink how this will all work. However, Felix’s hands start moving across my body, caressing me with soft touches. I feel his hands move around to my back and start to undo the laces of my gown. I gasp as his fangs scrape across the delicate skin of my neck, and Eli is quick to press his lips against mine, capturing the sounds as though they fuel him.

With strong, desperate kisses, Eli flicks his tongue against mine, his large hands gripping my shoulders and keeping me steady while Felix undresses me. I still cannot believe this is happening. I must be in a dream, as things like this do not happen in real life.

My gown puddles around my knees on the bed as it slides from my body, leaving me in my underwear. Almost as soon as I think this, my panties are torn from my body. I am so deep in my kiss with Eli that I only vaguely notice it from the change of temperature around my most intimate parts. The moment Felix’s fingers reach around and slide between my legs, though, I am fully aware. I pull back from Eli and tilt my head back, exposing my chest in the process. Eli quickly uses this as an excuse to palm one of my breasts with his large hand, kneading the sensitive flesh and pinching my nipples into stiff peaks.

All the while, Felix flicks my clit and drives me mad, bringing me to the brink of pleasure only to pull away at the last moment. Somehow, he seems to know the right moment to pull back. My gums ache, and my fangs fully extend, desperate to sink into one of them. I force myself to hold back, though, attempting to keep a tight grip on my control.

That quickly goes out the window as Felix slides two fingers into my pussy. He’s not rough, but he certainly is not gentle, brushing the spot within me.

My whole body feels alight with sensations. I am hot, oh so hot, and every place they touch tingles. I am so lightheaded that I feel as though I could float away, and these two are the only ones anchoring me to the ground.

“Someone needs to fuck me right now,” I gasp out, unable to take it any longer. It was meant to come out as an order, but it sounds more like a desperate plea. Thankfully, I am not kept waiting, and the two males lock eyes, having a silent conversation about how this is going to work.

“You should go first,” Eli bites out, clearly struggling to say the words. “Once we fuck, it will seal the bond, and I won’t be in control of my instincts. Seeing you fuck her would be too much.”

He stops there, but I know what he isn’t saying. His mating bond will make him extra possessive of me, particularly for the first few weeks. Watching a male who isn’t my mate have sex with me would probably push him over the edge, and I do not want to see what happens if we were to try. The fact that he can acknowledge this just proves that he is a good male, no matter what Finnik says.

Felix nods, accepting this without question, and moves farther onto the bed. Sitting upright and leaning against the headboard, he reaches over and pulls me onto his lap, his hard flesh standing proudly between us. He takes my hand and wraps it around his cock, watching as I stroke him as something akin to awe glitters in his eyes. I can hardly believe that I am finally touching Felix like this, and that we are able to take this step. His cock gets harder in my hand as I pump his length, changing speed and grip until a shiny droplet of precum glistens on the tip.

It would be so easy for me to lift my hips and sink onto his cock, but his hands on my legs keep me in place. Eli shifts behind me, placing his hands on my hips as he guides me up and positions me over Felix’s cock. Desperate for friction to ease my pulsing need, I attempt to impale myself on Felix. Something is stopping me though—Eli. Whining with frustration, I wiggle in his arms, his deep chuckle making the hair on my arms stand on end.

“Oh, my heart, so desperate for some relief.” His new endearment for me makes me shiver with pleasure, especially as he leans in to whisper in my ear. “I will always give you what you need, what you want…” Oh so slowly, he lowers me down until the head of Felix’s cock stretches my entrance.

I throw my head back, savouring the stretch as I take each rock-hard inch of his flesh inside me. I feel Felix’s eyes on me, watching my every movement, but I focus on the feeling of him, my heart beating rapidly in my chest.

“Fuck,” Felix mutters as I sink down onto him. His curse almost makes me laugh aloud, as I don’t think I have ever heard him swear before, but I am too preoccupied for that right now.

Finally, after what feels like a lifetime, I am fully seated on his length, his heat feeling so fucking delicious inside me that I can no longer wait. Desperate for friction or any sort of relief, I rock my hips, the two of us moaning in unison. After all this time, after all of the looks of longing and flirtatious conversations, we are finally joined together in a way that is far deeper than the physical act of sex. My eyes are locked onto him, giving him my attention despite the fact that my mate is here. I need to show him he is just as important to me as Eli.

Of course, the fae is never one to be outdone, and as he presses up against me, he matches my movement, rocking his hips with mine. His hard cock is pressed between us, and I feel it move against me as I pleasure Felix. It does something to me that I cannot explain, only turning me on more.

One of Eli’s hands slips around my hip and goes straight between my legs. I startle as he presses his fingers to my clit. Felix doesn’t seem to mind the other male’s involvement. In fact, he watches me with hooded eyes, lost to the magic of this moment.

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