I am so aware of him, his every moment, and every breath.
He consumes me.
Like a magnet, I’m drawn to him. I can’t help myself. He is my drug. My passion.
And I’m scared as hell.
******
I’m at lunch with Derek the next day, we meet in the same spot as last time, after my morning class finishes.
“Am I signing my death warrant by being here today?” he asks.
“No, it’s not like we are doing anything wrong. How’s life?” I inquire.
“The usual. School, work, play.” His lip curls up when he says ‘play.’ Typical.
“You do know Chase can kick my ass right?” I stare at his muscles, pondering, and he bursts out laughing. “Normally I can handle my own, but Chase is a badass fighter.”
“What?”
“Yeah, didn’t you know? He’s a legend on campus.” So I have been told.
“So he’s known for his womanizing and fighting skills?” I ask.
Derek nods. “That pretty much sums it up. But he’s a crazy fighter; I heard this one story when...”
“Derek seriously!”
“What! The guys still love to talk about it.” He chuckles.
“Why are we friends again?” I groan.
“Because you were desperate?” he teases.
I throw a fry at him.
Chapter Twenty Three
The next day, I’m sitting at the dining table with Kade, playing scrabble. I had guilt tripped him into playing it with me, but now I think he loves it.
“So, I hear you and Derek have been hanging out lately.” Kade says, looking annoyed.
“Yeah, he’s been a good friend,” I tell him.
“Friend?” He scoffs. “You know he wants you right?”
I shrug. “Other than the very first day, he’s been nothing but a friend and has made no moves. I like him.”
“Just be careful, alright,” Kade warns ominously.
Just then, Chase walks in, takes us in and a smile tugs at his lips. Then his eyes land on Kade and his smile drops, a muscle working in his jaw.
“Kade,” he says calmly. “What the fuck is that you have in your hand?”
Kade looks at his hand, then his eyes widen. I look to see what the hell is going on and almost laugh when I see Kade eating one of Chase’s Twix bars.
Kade bites his lip to contain his smile. “I will replenish your stash bro, I swear.”