Page 12 of Healing of the Heart

Jenna: Omg. Godspeed my friend

Blake: lol. I need it. She hates my guts

Jenna: I mean, not to sound like a bitch, but can you blame her?

Blake: Nope, I can’t, but that’s the sucky part.

Blake: I want to apologize but I don’t even know how

Jenna: I mean, you can say you’re sorry, but who knows if she’ll even believe you

Blake: I just want to let her know that I’m not the same person I was back then

Blake: What I did was super fucked up, but I know that now.

Jenna: So tell her that.

Blake: Yeah, but who knows if she’ll listen

Jenna: Well you can’t make her listen

Jenna: But you’ll never know if you don’t try. You’ll just both be miserable

Blake sighs to herself and looks at Amory again. Amory’s eyes are closed, long eyelashes flickering, but Blake can tell by her breaths that she’s still awake. She thinks to herself, why does she have to be so stubborn? But, then again, why did Blake have to sleep with her girlfriend?

Blake: Yeah. I might talk to her later. It’s super late over here right now

Blake: And we’re both super tired so I’m gonna talk to you later.

Jenna: Okay. Good night.

Blake: Good night.

Blake closes her eyes and falls asleep. It doesn’t last long, however. She wakes up again a couple hours later to Amory tossing and turning on the floor. Blake tries hard to ignore her and go back to sleep, but she can’t. Amory sighing and turning on the floor invades her thoughts, and she can’t clear her mind enough to fall asleep.

Blake sighs and then she starts to get annoyed. Like, she gets that Amory hates her, and she understands why, but she doesn’t need to be so stubborn about it to the point where she’s uncomfortable. She doesn’t get it. She would never do that if she were in Amory’s shoes. But then again, she’s not, and has never been in Amory’s situation.

Amory turns over again and groans.

Blake rolls her eyes and looks over to where Amory is sleeping. It wouldn’t be so bad if Amory wasn’t so loud about her discomfort, but now Blake can’t sleep and she needs her sleep. She’s still like a teenager sometimes, especially when it comes to sleep. If she doesn’t get at least nine hours, she’s miserable the next day. That’s part of the reason she was so bitchy during medical school and her residency.

Blake tries to ignore Amory once again, and it works for about an hour, as she’s able to fall into a restless sleep, but then she wakes up again and she’s getting pissed off. She really needs Amory to either stop rolling around or join her in the bed.

Maybe naked.

For fuck’s sake, Blake! Turn off your inappropriate sex drive for once.

“Oh,” Blake says, giving an overdramatic moan, “this bed sure is comfy.”

“Fuck off.”

“It’s so comfy, I could sleep here forever,” Blake says.

“Fuck off,” Amory says again with a groan.

“Well at least I’m not tossing and turning,” Blake says. “I’m sleeping on a comfortable mattress, so comfortable I could sink into it.”

“You need to shut up,” Amory says.

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