I couldn’t let this happen.
 
 I just couldn’t.
 
 He leaned forward and gently slid his bottom lip over mine. His breath massaged my nose and cheek.
 
 I shut my eyes, ecstatic with the sensation. It was almost painful to have something I wanted so close.
 
 The anticipation only heightened the sensation.
 
 “I thought we weren’t going to see each other again?” I said.
 
 “Is that what you want?” he said, not taking his lips from mine.
 
 You don’t know what I want.
 
 Or, maybe, you do.
 
 “No,” I said softly.
 
 “So, tell me what you do want.”
 
 My mouth turned dry and I could hardly breathe.
 
 I want you.
 
 I couldn’t say it. But it was plainly written on my face if he were to open his eyes and look.
 
 I wanted him more than I could express.
 
 Words were too poor a substitute.
 
 They could never plumb the depths required to explain that feeling, that desire, that need.
 
 That obsession.
 
 “I want…” I said.
 
 “Yes?”
 
 “I want…”
 
 Not to get pregnant!
 
 The voice of logic and reason hit me like a bucket of ice water.
 
 My eyes bolted open and I shoved him back.
 
 The door hissed open and he fell out.
 
 He lay on the floor in the hallway.
 
 The prisoners working on where a barricade had been set up the night before looked over at us.
 
 Seeing me standing over Trayem, one blew a wolf whistle.
 
 “Take it easy on him!” he yelled. “He’s just a boy!”
 
 The prisoners joined in, smacking each other on the back and roaring with laughter.