“Didn't mean what? You asked if we were going to bed.”
“Yes, yes,” I said, not sure what I was saying yes to. But meaning it.
Oh, I meant it.
“Yes? Then, that’s what we're going to do. No take backs, Little Red,” Josef growled.
“Wait,” I said, needing him to understand.
“Wait for what?” he asked, but he stopped, and that was all that mattered.
“I mean, it's not the same as before,” I mumbled.
“I, um, look, Josef, I haven’t done this. I mean, I’m not like your women. And I look different now,” I blurted, embarrassed.
“What are you talking about?”
“I’m talking about this,” I said, gesturing to my body.
“I’m having a hard time following, Little Red. Better use small words.”
I rolled my eyes.
This prick.
He thought I didn’t remember how fucking smart he was.
Ha! That was a laugh.
I remembered everything about him. Including how good he looked without his clothes.
“I’m not a teenager. I’ve gotten older, and fatter, okay? Are my words small enough for you?” I asked, angry at myself for all my stupid feelings of inadequacy.
I knew people got older.
It was natural. It was nothing to be ashamed of or apprehensive about.
But Josef was ridiculously fit and attractive. I didn’t even want to imagine the kind of women he’d been with.
Svelte, sleek, physically superior women. Women who probably did not share my views on aging naturally.
Fuck.
“So, let me get this straight, Wife. You think I give a shit that you look different now as opposed to fifteen years ago?”
I nodded, arms crossed over my chest.
“Fuck, okay. Meredith, look at me,” he said, gripping my chin between two fingers. “I will never lie to you. Not ever. So, let’s start with me telling you this truth. Okay?”
“Okay,” I whispered.
“Eighteen-year-old you was beautiful. That’s no lie, Baby. You were the prettiest thing I ever saw. A truly lovely girl,” he said, his voice dropping to a deep whisper.
“But, Little Red, and this is important so pay attention,” he demanded, and I nodded again. “Thirty-two year old you is fucking stunning. Every time I look at you, you just get better. Now, give me your hand,” he growled.
I listened. I gave it to him. My body trembled, but I followed his command, helpless to do otherwise. Josef took my hand, forcing it down on his hard as steel cock. I swallowed.
Holy shit.