Page 12 of Blade's Angel

I feel my body tense up just thinking about what happened the next time. What she did next to me was worse than accusing me of lying in some ways.

“How was it worse, Blade?” She asks softly, but her eyes are burning with rage.

“This one happened in front of most of the MC. I was in the Common Room, when I saw her, I froze up. God, I hate admitting that, but yeah, I froze up right there in the middle of the room. She walked straight up to me and slapped me, kind of like she did today, but then she accused both me and Flame of lying about me being raped when I was younger. The worst part about it was the fact that the only people who knew about what happened to me at that point were the club's Officers and Jasmine. It wasn't common knowledge; she ended up exposing my past to everyone. I think that’s why she believes I lied, because it wasn’t common knowledge what happened to me back then.”

“It doesn’t fucking matter whether it was common knowledge or not; what she did was out of order. She’s fucking lucky I wasn’t here then, because I’d have knocked her the fuck out.” Sera sounds genuinely angry.

“It’s actually funny you should say that because I’m pretty sure Shadow told her at the time that she was lucky she was female because he wanted to deck her.” I say with a little laugh.

“Great minds and all that.” She says with a smirk.

“Shadow gave her a verbal bashing, and she didn’t like that; she actually called everyone liars and said they were just covering for me. Then came her final hit; she hoped that one day I actually got to experience being raped.” I whisper the last part because even thinking and speaking what she said to me makes me want to hurl.

“WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!” Sera shouts. “She’s fucking lucky that I didn’t know she had said that earlier, because I really would have beaten the shit out of her. Fuck, what the hell is wrong with that woman?!”

"Yeah, it was pretty fucking horrible; every time I see her now, she seems to trigger me back to my past, like you saw earlier. I fucking hate it.”

“It's understandable that she causes that reaction from you, Blade. Don't let it get to you. I understand why it's affecting you this way. I'd be exactly the same way.”

“Really? You don't think I should be over it by now?”

"No, I don't. I think our traumas are just that. Ours. There is no timetable on when you should be over it.”

"I know you're right. There's never going to be an easy fix for trauma."

“Fuck no, there really isn’t. If there was, I'd have used it already.”

If this wasn’t already such a heavy conversation, I’d ask her to elaborate. But I can see that my own words have affected her. Whatever she went through, it’s bad. We need to shut this conversation down for now before we both end up in a bad way.

I reach out and grab her hand, and she immediately squeezes back. It’s a nice feeling to have her hand in mine. It just fits. Like it’s meant to be there.

“You know, even you telling me what you have explains a lot about how I’ve felt since we first met.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’ve felt comfortable with you since the moment we met. I trusted you when, in all honesty, I’ve never trusted someone before. Somewhere, on a deeper level, I knew you were like me.”

“You knew I’d experienced something traumatic too. Even if the words were never spoken.”

“Yeah. Like knows like.”

I can’t help but think about what she’s saying. When we first met, I was immediately attracted to her. I couldn’t miss her good looks, but she’s right. There was more in the background. I trusted her on some level from the start, too. Even if I didn’t realize it at the time.

Chapter Ten

Sera

Talk about a heavy topic, and I know I don’t know everything. He only told me what I needed to know to understand the situation with Jasmine. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like what happened to her, but that does not excuse her atrocious behavior towards Blade.

She’s a motherfucking adult, and she should have acted like one. Instead, she chose to behave like a child. How could she not see the truth behind Blade’s words when he told her his past? It’s fucking right there in his eyes when he talks about it.

The shadows that creep in as he remembers the pain he experienced back then. They’re as fucking obvious as my blonde hair. The woman seriously has more issues than she’s letting on, that’s for sure, but that changes nothing. She comes at Blade again, and I won’t fucking hold myself back. He doesn't fucking deserve what she's doing to him, and I refuse to allow it to continue. Blade may be an Enforcer, but he's still a human with feelings and emotions. I'll do everything in my power to ensure they're protected.

Blade telling me what he has, has made me want to do something I’ve never done before, and that’s open up. No way am I ready to tell him all the horrors of my life, but I want to tell him something so he knows I get his pain.

“I was eight the first time it happened.” I say, breaking the silence.

“The first time, what happened, Angel?”

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