Page 29 of Sinful Touch

She shakes her head and allows the tears to roll down her face, her eyes break from mine and I don't need to turn around to know she is looking at the girl.

I feel her hand on my lower back again.

Fuck.

“He is already taken, sweetheart; maybe next time,” The girl snaps at Lil.

She doesn’t say a word, but she backs up, turns around, and pushes her way through the crowd of girls waiting for me to sign their books.

“Liliana!” I yell after her, but the girl and my agent both grab one of my arms, keeping me in place

“You can’t leave until you sign the books, Jaxon, you know that,” He says, trying to remind me of something I already fucking know and can give two shits about.

I watch as Lil disappears into the crowd of girls, my heart sinks as she runs out of the store.

Fuck, Fuck.

I rip my arms from both of them and start to push my way through the crowd.

Liliana has to know it wasn’t what it looked like. I would never fucking do that to her, but right now, I don't think she will believe my words, so my behavior will need to be enough to convince her.

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Liliana

Istop on the sidewalk outside of the bookstore. I can’t believe what I just saw. He pushed her away.

Jaxon Fox will always have fans, girls, who want him because of who he is.

I know he was going to try to explain, but I can’t hear it right now. All I can hear are the voices in my head reminding me that I am not good enough.

No one is ever going to want you, daughter; look at you. Can you blame them?

What do you expect to happen when you look like that? It would be best if you ate less Liliana.

Stop acting like a victim, you aren’t a victim, this is happening because of you.

Why do you make me out to be the bad guy, I am your mother. I am just trying to help you.

Go upstairs and change, and do something with that hair you look disgusting, did you even try?

I cover my ears with my hands and slam my eyes shut as the rain starts to come down on me. My mother was right. Who would want me? Look at me.

Jaxon can have whoever he wants. Why in the world would he want to stay with me?

I signed the contract, after all. Maybe that means I can’t have anyone else but him, but he can have whoever he wants. What if I never showed up here? What if he never saw me, would he have pushed her away? Would he have reacted that way to her, or would he be in the back right now doing whatever he wanted to do?

I saw it in her eyes and the way she spoke to me; They had slept together before. Maybe he has slept with her since our first encounter. I want to ask him, but I am afraid of the answer. I am afraid of looking him in the eyes right now because I know if I look into those deep green eyes, I will not be able to hide the throbbing pain in my chest right now.

He would see that I am an open wound to him, he will see that I am not strong, that I am beyond insecure, he will see that I am in fact in love with him, and I will see that he doesn’t feel the same about me.

I signed the contract, singing myself over to him. Maybe that is all. This is a business transaction between two adults, and eventually, he will move on, just like he has with all the other girls he had signed the contract with. I took their place, and someone will take mine; it is just the way it is.

“Liliana,” Jax says from behind me.

I take in a deep breath, I stand still as he makes his way around me stopping in front of me. He grabs onto my wrists, forcing me to lower my hands.

I look at his chest, seeing the tip of his tattoo peaking out from underneath his white button-up shirt.

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