Page 66 of Ballads of Lines Blurred

I nodded, that damn urge to cry back again.

The past few days I was hard on myself, wondering what the hell I was doing. Then Slater showed up today and put things into perspective.

There were going to be times where this relationship was work. I knew that from watching Hale with Simon and Danny. Navigating with one person would be difficult. Having two boyfriends complicated things further, but not in a bad way. I loved how we were when we were together. If only I didn’t get in my head and start thinking shit I shouldn’t have. If that was how Slater felt all the time, it was no wonder he panicked. I was a damn mess.

“How much time do you have left?” I asked him. He was wiping down a bench when I came in.

He glanced at one of the clocks that hung around the gym. “I’m done now. Brooke is here until closing. Why? We going somewhere?”

There was no one near us. The only member in the gym was on the other side. I turned to block their view and lightly dragged my finger down Cody’s chest to the waistband of his shorts. “I was thinking the three of us could go to Slater’s and get cozy in bed together.”

He moved closer until our chests touched. “Only if I get to cuddle with you both after. This past week I got used to you two being with me. At least until?—”

“No,” I quickly cut him off. “We’re done talking about my stupidity. I’m sorry. So damn sorry. Can we move on to the fun stuff now?”

Cody dipped his head, so his breath tickled my ear. “I’d really like to feel you inside me, Milo.”

A full-body, head-to-toe shiver went through me. “Fuck, honey, sign me up for that.”

Pulling back, he started walking toward the back hallway. “Why are you still standing there? I thought we were leaving.”

“Huh?” I snapped out of my stupor. I’d been staring at his beautiful ass while he walked away. Every time I saw it, clothed or not, I wanted to part his cheeks and sink deep. It seemed like I’d finally get my chance.

Cody chuckled. “Let’s go.”

I’d seen Bailey do it before. The way she trailed after Danny, Simon, and Hale, like anywhere they went, she would go. That was me with Cody right now. With the view of his ass and how it flexed with every step in the athletic shorts he wore, yup, I’d follow him to the ends of the earth.

I caught up with him before he got to the office to grab his belongings. “Want me to ride with you?”

“If you want. Is Slay okay?”

“He was fine on the ride over. Us working things out calmed him. He was worried, and I had the same level of fear before he showed up. I can’t imagine him feeling that all the time.”

“Me neither, but I’m glad you two talked. It was really bothering him that you were pulling away. Me too. I don’t want to feel like that again, okay?”

I pushed up on my toes to press a kiss to his lips. There was only a two-inch difference between us in height, but it was enough that I liked to go on my toes to be even with him. “I’m right where I want to be. I’m a relationship man now, in it with you both for good.”

His arm wound around my waist. “You better be because I’m not letting you go.”

“Please don’t.”

Cody kissed me then, not the gentle one I just gave him. This was deep and full of longing. I’d hurt not only myself but them by retreating like I did. At the time, it felt like the right thing to do. Now, I knew I had to communicate when I was feeling something. I couldn’t let us hurt like that again.

While our relationship wasn’t brand new, I was still learning. This was the first time I’d been in love. Not a little crush, but soul deep love where I wanted to be with them always.

Leaning back, I said, “Slater brought up us going on tour with him.”

“I want to go. Not only will it be great to spend time with you both, but how often can I say I went on tour with the biggest rock band out there?”

“And that you’re sleeping with a member of the band.”

“That is a perk.”

“I’m going to talk to Dexen.”

“I’ll talk to Xaiden. We’ll make it work.”

I nodded as elation filled me. We could do this. We could spend months on tour with Slater. I didn’t revel in the idea of sleeping on a crowded bus but there had to be a way where it wasn’t so bad.

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