Page 73 of Goodbye Note

I swallowed and barely croaked, “What?”

“We’re alternating. I am freezing my balls off.” He shoved the shampoo into my hands and waited for me to get out of the water.

I finished rinsing and stepped out of his way. He turned his ass to me, standing face forward with his palm pressed into the tile just like the last time I watched him.

“You not lathered yet?” he asked, turning around, and I realized I’d just been standing there like an idiot.

“Zoned out, man.” I poured shampoo into my hands and rubbed them through my hair, getting a good lather going.

He didn’t turn away; he watched.

My heart skipped a beat.

Or two.

I liked it.

And I didn’t know what that meant.

I’d always liked his eyes on me, but I’d thought it was his attention. But this was on my body.

We traded, and I watched him. My heart rate picked up speed, hammering in my neck—and lower. I tried to think about anything else, but my body wasn’t having it. Not while Varian’s eyes were on me. I rinsed, and we switched places again, taking turns as the tension peaked. We finished, and I grabbed our towels, holding one out for him.

He took it, wiping his face, and I didn’t turn around when I stripped off my boxers, wanting to see his reaction to me.

His lips twitched.

Was he fighting a smile?

My dick ached, and I couldn’t play this game anymore. Not when I didn’t even know what was going on in my own head. I dried myself off and got dressed without looking at him again.

We left in silence.

Kiernan was the only one waiting. “Took you two long enough.”

“Want to go in there and get my ruined pants and see what we were dealing with?”

Kiernan rolled his eyes. “Come on.”

“Where’d my brother and the guys go?” Varian asked, but he fell into step with us.

“Both buses are waiting around the corner. I had them pull up.”

“Thanks, man.” Varian glanced at me as our arms brushed.

I knocked my shoulder against his. “You want to ride with us?”

He locked eyes with me and nodded slowly. “Sure.”

“Cool.” I couldn’t contain my smile.

He returned it as we climbed aboard. “I’m so fucking beat.”

We greeted the guys and took a couple hits since they were all smoking, and we ended up chilling in the front lounge when everyone else went to crash.

“You ready to sleep?” Varian asked.

“I’m not going to sleep.”

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