Page 204 of Goodbye Note

Finally, he broke, fucking my mouth with abandon, filling my throat to grind against my face. I took it all and wanted more, rewarded with his cum. He cried out, rutting in frantic strokes. Riding his pleasure out on my face.

He sat back, breathing hard. Beautiful and spent. Strings of saliva still connected us. “Do you even know how much I love your mouth?”

I smiled, face hurting. It had been a long time since I smiled for real. “I felt it. I love when you use me.”

"But I want you to get off, too. I love making you come."

“I don’t know if I’ll be able to get it up. I told you, it’s been an issue since I went on these meds since my breakdown. That doesn’t make it any less fun.”

“Then why do you want me to fuck you?”

“Is that not obvious?”

He shook his head.

“The closeness. I want the intimacy, not the orgasm.”

He clenched his teeth, clearly fighting a war with himself. “If we do this, neither of us will be able to stop.”

“I don’t want to stop.”

“There is so much more to it than what we want. Remember last time?”

I cupped his face, kissing him. “I’m not listening to anyone else this time. I made the biggest mistake of my life that night, and I won’t let anything take you from me again.”

He rubbed his nose over mine, stubble burning my lips. “I’m not twenty anymore—you’ll have to give me like twenty minutes.”

I laughed. “That’s all? I’m impressed.”

“You’ve always made me hard like no other.” He grabbed my hip, pulling my body to his. “Can I try something?”

“What?”

“I want to get you off.”

“I told you?—”

He cut me off. “I’ll go slow, and if you’re not into it, I’ll stop. Plus, touching you will only make me hard faster.”

“You can—” I started, but he was already moving, digging in my drawer for lube. Thankfully, I had that. “I just don’t want you to get frustrated if it doesn’t work,” I said as he moved to the bottom of the bed.

“If it doesn’t work, you’ll be nice and wet and stretched out for my cock.”

I lifted a brow, breath catching. “What are you going to do?”

“Flip over. I’ll show you.”

I turned to my stomach, looking over my shoulder. He unzipped his pants and knelt between my knees and set the lube aside. Questions sat on the tip of my lips, but he dropped down, taking my ass in both hands, spreading me.

Oh! Never in my wildest dreams would I have expected what happened next.

The straight, inexperienced guy of my past teased his tongue over my ring.

I buried my face in the sheets and groaned. “Motherfuck...”

He turned enough to bite my cheek and smiled against my skin. “How is that?”

“Wow.”

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