Page 174 of Goodbye Note

a note

goodbye smeared in ink

i wish i could burn it now

instead, i burned it into flesh

I froze. Was he singing about… Fuck. Changing my name and going into witness protection sounded better every day.

you’ll always be my star-crossed lover but never my forever.

when your lips press to that spot,

it saves me in all the ways i’ll never tell you

i can’t tell you how many times i wish it were different,

and i wasn’t like a filament, almost burned out

april only brings the downpour of our hearts

you left me a letter

a note.

goodbye smeared in ink

i wish i could burn it now

instead, i burned it into flesh

The pleasure i take in the hits these lines deliver

are these words like knives to your ears?

how many times do you wish you could forget?

i’ll take One for the team, while you take one too many.

i wish i knew what it all means, or if this life is about suffering.

Under the weather but not when we’re together

blow after blow has me spiraling out of control

but that’s not your problem anymore

we’ll smile and wave and act like we’re still friends

but we both know this is how we end

april only brings the downpour of our hearts

you left me a letter

a note

goodbye smeared in our ink

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