Page 36 of Weather Girl

“I can’t believe I did something so careless. So stupid.” I kick off my boots and collapse on the bed, draping my uninjured hand across my face.

Russell gestures to the bed next to me, as though asking if it’s okay for him to sit down. I give him a nod. “You’re not stupid. It was an accident. It could have happened to anyone.” Gently, he grazes the arm I have across my face with a few fingertips, and I feel my skin prick with goose bumps.

“I know, I just... didn’t exactly imagine this weekend playing out this way.”

“At least now you know carrot cake M&M’s exist.” He reaches for a bag at his feet and empties it onto the bed next to us. Needless to say, we missed the team dinner, though Torrance and Seth are about the furthest thing from my mind at this point. The lodge’s kitchen is closed, and I told him I wasn’t hungry enough to order food, but he stopped at the vending machine while we waited for the elevator. And now my grumbling stomach is grateful he did. “Personally, I’m not sure how much longer I could have gone on without that knowledge.”

“Ugh, don’t make me laugh. It’s too painful. I need Serious Russell.”

He schools his face into a serious expression, eyes unblinking behind his glasses. “There are four major golf championships in the world that take place between April and July. The most prestigious is the Masters Tournament, which is hosted by the Augusta National Golf Club in Georgia.”

“Yes. More of that. That’s perfect.” I scoot higher on the bed, trying to find a comfortable position with my arm in a sling. Spoiler: there is none. “Do you mind grabbing my phone for me? It’s all the way over there.” I gesture to where I set my bag on the desk, which right now feels very far away.

He retrieves it, handing it to me without so much as glancing at the screen. God, he’s just so polite, and maybe my standards are way down in the gutter, but still. It makes me wonder what it would take to unstitch him. To mess up his hair and rumple his jacket.

I thank him and unlock my phone. A text from Torrance, asking how I am. I fumble with the keyboard for a while before giving up and sending a voice text, filling her in on the past couple hours.

“Is there anything else I can get you or do for you? Really, just say the word.”

“I’m okay for now. Thank you.” I drop the phone to the bed next to me and let out a laugh I immediately regret, given the way it makes my chest ache. “I feel like I’m going to run out of different ways to thank you. You really don’t have to do any of this. I’ll be okay for the rest of the night if you want to go meet up with everyone else.”

He must hear the longing in my voice, the truth that I don’t want him to go meet up with everyone else at all.

“I’m happy to stay,” he says. “I broke my arm playing hockey when I was in middle school. I was such a baby—my mom had to cut up my food and help me wrap my arm in plastic every time I took a shower.”

“That sounds adorable, your mom fawning over you.”

His mouth kicks into a grin. “I was a little shit about it. Definitely not adorable.” He shifts on the bed, his shirt stretching across the curve of his belly. “Seriously, though. Whatever you need.”

“Maybe you could just talk to me?” I don’t want to talk about Torrance or Seth or work. I just want to relax, which I guess is what we came all the way up here to do.

“I can do that.”

About five seconds of silence follow, and I burst out laughing, in spite of the pain.

“You put me on the spot! That was a lot of pressure!” he says, but he’s laughing, too.

“Can you... tell me about Elodie?” I say, worried for a moment that he’ll shut down, the way he did on the drive. I reach for a pack of Skittles, using my teeth to tear it open.

“Well...” He draws out the word, busies himself with opening the aforementioned carrot cake M&M’s. I’m convinced he’s going to change the subject, tiptoe around it. But he doesn’t. “She’s in drama, as you know. Ever since she was little, she’s loved the spotlight. She loves show tunes, and she can really sing. For her ninth birthday a few years ago, we went to New York and spent the whole week seeing shows.”

“She seems awesome. I haven’t spent much time around twelve-year-olds lately, but damn, she’s sharp. Are they all like that?”

“She and her friends definitely keep me on my toes. She’s a good kid, though. A great kid. Her bat mitzvah is coming up, too, and I thought she’d complain about having to get up early every Saturday, but she hasn’t, not even once.”

“How’s that going?”

“I’ve had only a few painful flashbacks to my own,” he says. “I’m excited for her. Liv isn’t Jewish, and we wanted Elodie to be able to decide for herself what she wanted to do, and she’s been focused on this for a while. I’m really proud of her for committing.”

I knew Russell had this whole other life as a father, but it’s not until this moment that it hits me how different his set of priorities is. He’s not just responsible for another human—he has this whole range of emotions reserved for only her, pride and awe and comfort. It’s staggering, really, to imagine what these past twelve years have been like for him.

A silence passes between us, during which I unearth a purple Skittle from the bag and chew it slowly.

“It felt like maybe you were upset with me,” I say. “In the car.”

“Ah. It may have seemed that way because... well, I’m not sure if I was upset, exactly. There’s just...” He becomes inordinately fascinated by the floral pattern of the bedspread, knotting his fingers with the tassels on the duvet. “It’s complicated.”

“We have all night. Or until these meds make me pass out. If you want to talk about it, that is.” I don’t want to force him, but I can’t explain how badly I want to know this side of him. How it feels like if I don’t, he’ll go back to being a work acquaintance, when I want him to be so much more than that. This has to be the first step—I’m certain of it.

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