Page 131 of Crave Me

I hadn’t done anything physical since that night with Cas several days ago now.

I’d told him about dissociating for a great deal of the time that I’d been in captivity. I’d also told him about the parts that had cut into that, where I hadn’t been able to maintain it. Namely, the girls being murdered and then Elijah taking me in the bath, as well as parts of him using me as a demonstration to Jeremy. After putting that out there and actually acknowledging that it had affected me, I’d wanted to smash it all to pieces by just getting right back to the physical stuff.

But I hadn’t been able to.

He’d been right; I’d needed some time.

But that urge that was always there for me more so than with any of the others had been growing stronger and trying to run right over that sickening feeling that took me over whenever memories and flashes of my time in Elijah’s hold rose up. And now it had gotten to such a point where I was craving Cas, Sky, and Bastian, so fucking on edge with needing to be with them like that again that I could barely check it.

I fucking needed to do this.

I just hoped I could handle it when the time finally came in a few hours and that it wouldn’t be marred by those fucked-up flashes that kept happening since I’d let go and admitted to Cas that I hadn’t come out of that ordeal completely unscathed.

I’d wanted to believe it, it was why I’d been so adamant and fierce about it with him.

But denial could only get you so far. It could only last for so long.

There came a time eventually when we had to face our demons and that which haunted us.

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~Sebastian~

Shimmering gold.

Edgy black.

Vibrant red.

The claws had somewhat of a 3D effect, making it look a lot like they were literally there and come to life, more than tattooed images, that they were actually biting into skin as they encircled every inch of his currently very hard cock.

“Fancy yourself a piece, B?”

I blinked and my gaze snapped to Caleb’s hooded one.

He was smirking at me as he sank into Cas behind him who was running his fingers all over Cal’s body and making him undulate against him in front of the bed with Cal pushing back and grinding his ass into Caspian’s cock.

After dinner, Caleb had rushed up here to his bedroom to take another shower, an indication in his current state that he was nervous about the four of us coming together tonight. So once he’d stepped out, Cas had taken time to ease him into it, to soothe and warm him, to work him up slowly and carefully.

It had worked, really helping Cal to sink into that sexual mindset.

And, honestly, it was doing something to me too.

I couldn’t tell if it was just the sexual heat in the room that was taking me over, or maybe the anticipation of waiting for Sky to come in here from her room after she’d wanted to slip into something more comfortable first.

Perhaps it was just the tease of it, because it had been so long since the four of us had come together like this.

“Maybe,” I said, ripping my tee over my head and approaching them.

I was about to sit down on the bed and wait for Sky to get this thing started when Caleb held out his hand to me. “Come.”

The sexual heat burning into me took me over and I stepped forward.

A sexy groan spilled from him as Cas scraped his teeth over his throat. Caleb’s cock bounced against his abs and he reached one arm up and hooked it around Caspian’s neck, tugging him closer and holding on for dear life at the same time as he lost himself to his ministrations.

And then his other hand glided over my jeans, brushing over my cock beneath.

I jolted and he stilled, gazing out at me curiously.

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