Page 13 of If Only You Hurt

I move my left hand to move hair behind her ear, my gaze locking with hers. “No matter where I am, I will always love you.”

Truer words have never been spoken when I say how much I love her. She may never know the extent of my love for her, because I may just be a best friend to her. But for me, she’s got a grip on my heart and I don’t think anyone will ever hold it the way she does.

She returns to kissing me and I hold on to her as I stand up and turn around so that I can lay her back on the bed. I gently place her back on the mattress, fumbling slightly as I honestly have no idea what I’m doing right now. That’s the thing with Laney though, I don’t care if I seem clueless because she isn’t here to judge me.

I bring my hand onto the rest of her dress and look at her for approval before pulling it down. She gives me a slight nod and I begin to remove the fabric for a second time, this time letting it fall to the ground as my best friend lays there, fumbling to bring her hands around her midsection and her chest.

“Don’t be embarrassed with me, Lane. Any moment in my life where I think of beauty, it always comes back to you. Right now is no different.”

I bring my shaky hand up to her collar bone and move it down, tentatively gauging how she will react. She looks down in wonderment and my hand moves along her skin, goosebumps lining the trail as I allow my fingers to touch the most magnificent person I’ve ever met.

I bring my lips to her ear and whisper, “Let me love you tonight, Laney. Let me show you how you make me feel.”

She breathes out a faint, “Yes,” and I begin to train kisses down her neck and across her chest. I try to come off as someone that knows what he’s doing, but I’m well aware I don’t have the finesse of a person that’s done this before.

When I get down to her bellybutton, she giggles a bit and I know I’m tickling her with my breath against her sensitive skin.

I stand up and begin to unbuckle my belt. She takes this as a cue to remove her underwear, shimming the material off while staying on the bed. We quickly get rid of the rest of our clothing and I’m standing there in awe of her, while her eyes are bulging out of their sockets.

“Wow! Um, Grant, there is no way that is fitting. No way!” Her curiosity is now replaced with panic as she looks down at my dick.

“Laney, it will fit. I don’t think it will feel that good this time around though. I mean, that’s what I found out when I searched on the internet.” Shit. That last part wasn’t supposed to slip.

“You looked it up?” She looks like she’s on the verge of laughter and bewilderment.

“Well, yeah. I mean, I already knew it wasn’t going to be comfortable for you, but I didn’t want to come here completely clueless. So I looked it up online to see if there was anything I could do to make it, you know, better for you.” I scratch at the back of my head, this conversation taking a turn from sexy to educational.

“That’s sweet of you,” her cheeks pink in embarrassment.

“Um, do you want to keep going?” Why am I acting so damn awkward?

“Yeah, I’d like that. Come here.”

I bring my body toward her, my hands coming up to cage her head and my lower body getting pretty damn close to hers. Shit.

I stand right back up and fumble to find my pants on the ground next to me. I feel the foil wrapper and I pull it out like a prize in a Cracker Jacks box.

Laney realizes what I’m doing and smiles wide, while I slowly open the condom and slowly begin to sheath myself. I look over and find her watching me in amazement, yet again.

I move myself back over her, this time my heart is pounding, knowing I’m about to have sex with my best friend. I begin kissing her again and she moves her arms around my neck, bringing my body down on hers.

I pull my head up so I can look at her. Without words, as if she can read my mind, she nods, answering a question I didn’t even have to say aloud.

I bring my hand around my cock and bring it to her entrance. Soon the head of my dick is at her entrance, and just rubbing on her is enough to feel fucking fantastic.

“I’ll go slow. I know it won’t be comfortable, but I will try not to hurt you. Okay?” I hate seeing her in pain, so this will gut me, but I hope it won’t be the worst feeling for her.

“Sure. Okay.” She opens her legs up for me, and I’m right there. I start to inch into her, and just having the tip in is enough to make me want to see fireworks. Shit, how am I going to last when just this much already feels intoxicating? .

I slowly start to push myself further, my eyes on Laney’s the entire time. I’m breathing through my nose to control myself from coming on the spot. I see her eyebrows furrow as I move further into her.

“Breathe, Laney. I got you,” I tell her, seeing her tense up. I think being the most relaxed possible might be the best idea right now for this to be more enjoyable for her.

She nods and starts to take deeper breaths in and out. I continue until I’m fully inside my best friend, and that’s right when I hear her intake of breath. My head falls into the crook of her neck, my composure at the brink of destruction.

“Fuck, Laney. You’re so tight. Are you okay?” I can’t help the words coming out of my mouth. She nods, but I can tell she’s trying to stay relaxed.

In this moment, I realize she’s utter perfection. I know that no matter what, I will never feel this type of connection with anyone else. She was made for me.

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