Page 104 of Love, Remember Me

Just before midnight Cat and her ladies went outside, accompanied by Lord Baynton. It was very cold, but the skies had cleared. Above them a quarter moon shone down, casting a silvery glow on the river below them. Then suddenly they began to hear the Christmas bells. All over England the church bells joyfully tolled in Christmas. The air was so clear that they could hear the great bells of Westminster several miles away as they pealed and rang, welcoming the Christ child, banishing the devil. Adjourning to the chapel of Syon House, they heard mass, as most people all over England were now doing.

Catherine Howard insisted upon celebrating each of the twelve days of the Christmas season. On the nights that followed, they danced with each other and played children's games like Hide the Slipper and Blindman's Buff. Some evenings were quieter. They simply played cards and diced with one another. There could be no mummers at Syon, nor village children come to sing and be given cakes and pennies. The poor who came with their wooden bowls for ale, however, were not turned away, at the request of the former queen. The king would have been very angry to learn that his disgraced consort was keeping a far better Christmas than he was. Indeed Lord Baynton worried a little about his master finding out, but he had not the will to deny Catherine Howard.

Nyssa finally told the others of Varian's arrest. Kate and Bessie were sympathetic and cried. Catherine Howard, however, said, " Tis so like Henry to behave in such a petty manner. None of those he has imprisoned is responsible for my bad behavior, nor were any of them involved. I suppose my uncle, the duke, is out of the royal reach."

Nyssa nodded. "Of course," she said dryly.

"Do you hate me for all of this?" Cat said. "You would not have ever had to leave Winterhaven and your children had I not begged the king for your company. Had I not done so, you would be safe with your husband at home."

"I do not hate you, Cat," Nyssa said quietly, "nor can I wish away what has already happened. It cannot be changed. But I am no saint, Cat Howard. I am indeed angry that your foolish actions have endangered my husband and my children. You cannot blame me for that."

"The king will release Varian," Cat said. "He is no Howard."

"Everyone keeps saying that," Nyssa told her, "but everyone identifies him with the Howards because of Duke Thomas."

There was nothing else to say about the matter. The twelve days of Christmas were over and gone. They waited at Syon for what was to come. On the twenty-first of January the government finally acted in the matter of Catherine Howard. Both houses of Parliament passed an Act of Attainder against her. When the king approved the attainder, Cat's fate would be sealed.

The archbishop came to speak with the queen. He wanted her written confession as to her adultery with Thomas Culpeper. He did not like seeing to her demise without this concrete assurance, although in his heart he felt that she was guilty.

"Thomas Culpeper has paid the ultimate price for his treason, Mistress Howard, and Francis Dereham for his presumption," he told her. "Will you not confess to me now, and clear your conscience?"

"I do not hold that to love a man is a sin," Cat replied to him, and refused to speak further on it. She was shocked to hear of the executions, but hid it well. She turned to Nyssa and said, "Please escort the archbishop to his barge, Lady de Winter."

Nyssa took up her cloak and walked from the house with the cleric. "Can you tell me, my lord, how my husband is?" she asked him.

"He is safe and well, my dear," Thomas Cranmer said, "but he, and the others, have been found guilty of Misprision of Treason by the Privy Council. Their possessions are to be forfeited to the crown."

"But that is not fair!" Nyssa cried. "My husband was never involved in any of the queen's misbehavior."

"I do not disbelieve you, my child, but the king is an angry, heartsore man. He wants revenge upon the Howards for his hurt."

"My husband is not a Howard," Nyssa said angrily. Then an idea struck her. Catherine Howard would shortly be condemned to die. Everyone knew it. She couldn't save Cat by remaining silent. But she might be able to save Varian. Nyssa could see the archbishop was troubled by Cat's refusal to confess to her misdeeds. He would always wonder if she had gone to her death an innocent, unless . . . Nyssa said to the archbishop, "My lord, I wish you to hear my confession.Please!"

Thomas Cranmer looked startled. "Here, madame?Now?"

Nyssa nodded vigorously.

Suddenly the archbishop knew that she wished to tell him something, but she also wished to be protected by the seal of the confessional. It had to be something very important. She was obviously using it to bargain for her husband's pardon and the reinstatement of their estates, now forfeit. "I can promise you nothing but absolution, my child," he told her honestly. "Absolution is the only thing in my power."

She nodded again, this time slowly. "I understand, my lord, but nonetheless I wish to confess to you. I will not kneel for fear of attracting the attention of those in the house." She put her hands in his. "Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned."

"What sins have you committed, my child?" he asked her.

"I caught the queen in the act of adultery at York, and I did not report it to the proper authorities. I saw her coupling with Thomas Culpeper while the king hunted."

The archbishop was staggered by her words. It was a moment before he could catch his breath again and ask, "Why did you not expose this sin, my daughter? By not doing so, you became a party to treason yourself."

"I feared I would not be believed," Nyssa said. "Remember that the king was once thought to be caught between the affections of Catherine Howard and Nyssa Wyndham. I honestly believed if I told what I knew, the king and others about him would say that I had said it out of jealousy. The king was so deeply in love with the queen, I knew he would not believe me. He would have punished me and my husband for lying. So I held my peace. I did not even speak of it to my husband at first. At Hull I finally told the queen that I knew of her illicit fornications with Master Culpeper. I begged her to cease and to be a true and loyal wife to her husband."

"You are to be commended for that advice, my daughter," the archbishop said approvingly. "What happened then?"

"The queen said she loved him, and could not cease. I reminded her that she endangered not just herself, but her family as well. I asked what would happen if she became with child? She would not heed my warnings. Then at Kettleby, Tom Culpeper and his friend, Sir Cynric Vaughn, accosted me one night as I walked from the Royal Pavilion to my own pavilion. They threatened me with violence, and Sir Cynric tore my bodice open and fondled my breasts. When he lifted my skirts, I kicked him, knocking him unconscious. Culpeper, who had been restraining me, released me to attend to his friend. As I made to flee, Culpeper warned me if I exposed him, my children would suffer. I dared not tell my husband, for he would have sought immediate satisfaction of the two men, and the scandal would have been out.

"What could I do, Your Grace? I am but a simple woman. I was afraid for my babies. Besides, Culpeper and the queen were being so indiscreet that I knew eventually they would be found out. That is why I was so desperate to go home, so we might be away from the trouble when it began. You need have no doubts, my lord, as to your own actions. Catherine Howard is guilty of adultery, and for my sin of omission in this matter, I beg God's forgiveness," Nyssa concluded.

"You have it, my daughter," the archbishop told her, making the sign of the cross over her. "You have done well to make your confession to me. I can promise you nothing but the absolution I have given you, but perhaps I shall be able to help you in that matter dearest to your heart, Nyssa de Winter. Thank you for the ease you have given my own conscience. I would not condemn the queen unfairly, but sometimes in matters like these, it is difficult to get at all the truth."

The Archbishop of Canterbury entered his barge and was rowed downriver to London. As she watched him go, Nyssa felt as if a great weight had suddenly been lifted from her shoulders. She realized now how terrible a burden her secret knowledge had been. Cat Howard's fate had been sealed long before her own confession to Thomas Cranmer. At least she knew now that Varian would be safe.

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