Page 21 of Knot My Sin

Yet another alpha I’m breaking my own rules for. I should leave before I take too big a risk and get hurt.

I’ve already shattered a million times over the years. It becomes harder and harder to put myself back together again.

“Wait,” Everest rasps, but I reach over and pluck the bag from his outstretched fingers.

Turning, I walk out of the kitchen to the room Flynn gave me. Putting the plate on the night table, I take another bite of pizza, humming in happiness at the taste. It won’t last long in my stomach, since it’s just cheese and bread, but it tastes really good right now.

My body is craving protein for some odd reason, and that hasn’t been happening lately.

We have to be happy with what we have. The words are to remind myself of this as well. I’m not allowed to want for more. I’ll never have a mate because he’s happily packed up with his omega, and I’m not a homewrecker. I’m happy for Flynn.

He can have him.

Rifling through the clothing, I find panties, a bra that’s several sizes too small, a pair of jeans, long-sleeved shirt, and a giant sweatshirt. There are also a pair of boots and socks that seem as if they may work. The door is slightly ajar, but I haven’t had enough privacy in my short life for it to matter.

Keeping my back to the door, I tear off the tags on a pair of panties and slide it up my legs. They fit well, even though it’s a thong. Alphas… Stepping into the jeans, I find they also fit well. I haven’t worn pants in I don’t even know how long. Next, I pull Flynn’s shirt up and over my head, reaching over blindly to grab the new one.

“Fuck, I’m sorry—” I hear, and I quickly band my arm around my breasts as I look over my shoulder.

While I haven’t been able to enjoy privacy in years, I don’t want to anger the omega who lives here. Especially not so close to my leaving.

Shaw is standing there awkwardly, the scent of caramel and salty popcorn filling the room. I can almost taste the salt on my tongue, and I ask myself what God I must have pissed off. Was I born under an unlucky star?

Ignoring the alpha, I pluck the shirt up, wrinkling my nose when I see how fucking thin it is. It’s a pack of three, so I quickly put all three on. The entire time, I ignore Shaw, but the back of my neck starts to sweat as I do.

Maybe the hormonal suppressant after effects are kicking in now?

While my body continued to develop, Trey made me continue to take them, desperately trying to stop my body’s growth. Unfortunately, my body started to reject them, and they made me really sick.

The doctor told Trey that the suppressants could kill me, so he stopped giving them to me. Trey grew uncomfortable quickly around me, and that led to my sale at the auction.

“If you speak, why don’t you?” Shaw asks me as I pull the tags on the sweatshirt and put it on.

My pizza is devoured now that I’m dressed, so I sit on the bed and put on the socks and boots. The shoes are a little big, but I’ll survive because the socks are thick.

“There’s something very odd about you, Wren,” he growls.

And you’ll never know what it is, asshole. This is for you. Funny how I don’t think you deserve it.

Standing, I walk up to him. If he wants a word, I can give it to him.

“Out,” I tell him.

Shaw takes a shaky breath as he hears my voice, and I notice that he’s rubbing his chest. I don’t care if he has a heart attack right here, I won’t be around to see it.

Okay, maybe I care a little, but only because Flynn loves him.

“Fine,” he mutters, turning and stomping out. As I follow, I silently wish the omega a good life with his alphas. My eyes prick with tears, making me blink in shock.

I haven’t cried in years. What’s so special now?

Forcing them away, I decide to figure it out later, because Shaw is walking me right to the front door.

“It’s about a mile walk to the gate. Once you get there, the sensor will tell me, and I’ll let you out,” he grunts. Shaw makes sure his body shields the alarm keypad as he punches in the code.

I roll my eyes at his back, because I’m never coming back here anyway. I would swear his scent is getting in my hair, in my pores, in my clothes, and I shudder. I’m not sure if I want to keep it with me or have it gone forever.

Being an omega is so confusing. The moment he unlocks the door and opens it, I duck under his arm and into the waning sunlight.

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