What does this man have?
 
 A large coffee.
 
 And some bagels.
 
 I can kiss him.
 
 “Is this you taking care of me?” I ask.
 
 “Sure,” he says. “Can we talk?”
 
 “Is this about last night? You know the entire day…”
 
 “I get it. I’m not here to judge you. It happens.”
 
 “Okay,” I say. “Come in.”
 
 I back up.
 
 Ellis steps into my apartment.
 
 I realize he’s been here before.
 
 Last night.
 
 When I was a drunk mess.
 
 I’m not so sure I’m much less of a mess.
 
 “Don’t mind me,” I say. “I feel as shitty as I look.”
 
 I laugh and turn.
 
 I look down to put the coffee and bagels down.
 
 I find myself frozen again.
 
 I’m staring down at the table.
 
 I’m staring right at my little purple friend.
 
 Just sitting there. Resting there.
 
 My vibrator on the coffee table like a conversation starter paperweight.
 
 As though it hadn’t just a few minutes ago been pleasuring my clit.
 
 I glance at Ellis.
 
 He’s staring at the vibrator too.
 
 He then looks at me.
 
 I’m not sure what to say.
 
 Do I lighten the mood? That’s not mine! Or How did that get there?
 
 Do I… get dirty? Want to watch me use it?