“I’m not sure about this.” I run my hands down the black bodycon dress hugging my figure.

“Abs, we are doing this.” Tally flashes me a reassuring smile.

“She’s right,” Liv adds. “You look amazing, and it’ll do you good to get out and let your hair down.”

I don’t share their optimism but when these girls put their mind to something there’s no arguing with them.

Besides, maybe they have a point.

I’ve managed a whole week of attending classes. Of going through the motions.

They’ve been there every step of the way, meeting me first thing and walking me to class, sitting with me at lunch. They even dropped the boys so I didn’t have to sit with Elliot.

I’m grateful, even if I know it won’t last forever.

“Here, drink this.” Liv hands me a glass of something.

“What is it?”

“A little Dutch courage. Don’t worry, we won’t let you get drunk.”

I take it from her, sniffing the contents. It smells fruity and a little bit bitter, but it doesn’t stop me from downing it in one.

“Holy crap, Abi.” Raine grins. “Atta girl.”

“You want another?” Liv asks and I shake my head.

“I think one is enough for now.”

I’ll never admit it to them, but what I really want is to lock myself away in my room and?—

No.

Not tonight.

Not while I’m with them.

I’ve managed to resist the urge to cut myself all week. Kept myself busy with revision and mindless TV. But it’s always there. A nagging little voice at the back of my mind whispering that it will make it all feel better.

“You know, you didn’t have to do this,” I say.

“Do what?” Tally frowns.

“Take me out. I know there’s a party at the Chapel tonight.”

It’s all everyone at school has talked about all week.

I’m surprised my sudden disappearance wasn’t the talk of the school, but I guess I have the girls and their boyfriends to thank for that.

“The boys can manage one little party without us.” She scoffs. “Besides, I’m so over watching the Heir chasers and their pathetic acts of desperation.”

“You’re not worried one of them might try something?” I ask.

I know how vicious those girls can be. How sneaky and manipulative.

“Oakley knows better.”

I glance at Liv and Raine and they both smirk.