Page 64 of A Second Chance At Forever

The first thing I saw walking in was Lennox on the dance floor with another man. I stopped, eyes locked on them, and took a deep calming breath. I pushed the feelings of anger and jealousy down and walked up to Nicole.

“Do you want to dance?”

Her eyes locked on mine, she was still mad, but she took my hand and I led her out to the dance floor.

“I’m sorry. You were right. I wanted to watch you squirm and then got mad when you did. I don’t know why I did that. I should have left when you asked.” Her eyes met mine and I saw sorrow behind them.

You would think that would’ve made me happy, that she admitted something I already knew, but it didn’t. It only made me angrier. I had cheated on her twice, yet she was sorry.

“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have sung that song.”

She smiled slightly. “It was just a song.”

I nodded my head but didn’t want to talk. I pulled her in closer where she rested her head against my chest, giving me a view of Lennox.

My eyes wanted to stay on her, watch her and the asshole she was dancing with, but I forced them away. I needed to control myself. I never was good at control when it came to Lennox.

The song ended and Nicole and I took our seats. Trent ordered us another round and we all sat back, laughing and talking.

With Lennox not at the table, Nicole put in the effort to be a part of the conversation, which made me happy. I didn’t want her to feel uncomfortable no matter how angry I was.

My eyes kept glancing back to Lennox and the guy on the dance floor, though. I watched as she turned her back to him and moved against him. I saw his eyes glaze over as he moved his hands to her hips.

She spun around and wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. My heart pounded against my chest watching them.

The guy ran his tongue across his bottom lip while his eyes became hooded, he moved slowly until his lips pressed against hers.

Automatically, I stood up, intending on walking over there and beating his ass. But then I remembered, I didn’t have that right anymore. I looked at Nicole, Trent, Sarah, and Alissa, their eyes were on me. “I’m going to use the bathroom.” I turned away without another look at them or Lennox.

In the bathroom, I leaned against the sink and hung my head.

You have to get a grip on this shit. She isn’t yours.

She looked like mine today, though. When she was beneath me, moaning my name.

I shook my head to clear out the images that thought brought on.

I can’t keep doing this to either of them. Nicole doesn’t deserve to be cheated on, she’s pregnant with my baby. Lennox doesn’t deserve what I’m doing to her either. I seduced her today. I teased her to get what I wanted. When the fuck did I turn into this?

Looking into the mirror, I knew I was a piece of shit. I cheated on my pregnant girlfriend. I turned the woman I loved into a dirty little secret. How could I do that to her? Somewhere deep inside of me, I knew what I was doing was hurting Lennox as well.

I pushed away from the sink and swung open the door. Standing directly across from me, in the doorway to the women’s room, was Lennox. Our eyes locked and I couldn’t help the urges that came up.

I closed the distance between us with one step, pushing us into the women’s bathroom. My lips found hers immediately, she tasted so sweet.

I couldn’t stand knowing that another man’s lips had touched hers. Mine needed to be the last.

I squeezed her hips, lifting her legs around my hips while grinding against her, never breaking the kiss. She felt so good moving against me. My heart pounded against my chest as my breathing became labored. The need I had for her was so strong, I didn’t know how to put the fire out.

“No, Mason. We can’t.” She pushed against my chest until I placed her on her feet. I took a step back.

My heart was racing, I couldn’t slow it down. I nodded, understanding. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me.” I shook my head as I ran my hands through my hair.

Lennox looked at me like she didn’t even know me anymore. I guess she couldn’t have, because I didn’t even know myself anymore. Somewhere I had changed.

I loved Lennox with all my heart, that was still the same, but somehow, I let my love for her rule all. Nicole didn’t matter, the future we were going to have didn’t matter. All I saw was Lennox and another man’s lips on her. I couldn’t handle it.

I stormed out of the bathroom and went straight to the bar.

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