I parked the car and slowly got out to knock on the door. After a moment of waiting, I turned around, convinced nobody was home. I had my foot on the step when I heard the door open.
“Can I help you?”
I turned around to see her.
“Oh, hi. I’m Lennox Madison, I was looking for Mason. Is he here?” My eyes lingered over her, trying to take in as much of her as I could. I don’t like to admit it, but I needed something to compare myself to. My self-esteem was lacking, to say the least.
“Like, Lennox Madison, the country singer?” she replied with excitement in her voice as her green eyes lit up.
“Yeah, that’s me.” I forced a smile before stuffing my hands in my pockets. “Is Mason here by chance?” I stood on my tiptoes, trying to see over her shoulder.
“I’m sorry, no he’s not. He had practice this evening. Do you want me to tell him you came by? He should be getting home soon.” She smiled politely.
I smiled back, she seemed sweet. “No, thank you. We used to be friends and I was in town so I figured I would stop by and say hi. But, thank you, anyway.” I turned and walked away before she could ask anything else.
I got in the car and drove away as quickly as possible without kicking up rocks. As I drove down the long driveway, a single tear rolled down my cheek. I wiped it away quickly and kept my eyes on the road.
By the time I made it home, it was starting to get late. I walked in with Dad passed out on the couch while Kathryn sat watching the news. I smiled, but didn’t say anything as I made my way to my room.
Once inside, I locked the door and pulled off my clothes before climbing into bed. I felt the tears well up but wouldn’t let them come out.
I missed my chance.
I left him so I could go chase my dream and he found someone else.
I didn’t blame him, he couldn’t wait forever. But I missed him, I missed what we had.
I still wanted that.
I still wanted him.