“I want to feel you inside me,” I said.
I didn’t care that he wasn’t wearing protection. I knew I should care, but I wanted to have this man’s baby. I didn’t even worry that he might not feel the same. I knew he did. This was what people meant when they said something was meant to be. I felt a connection from the second I locked eyes with the guy, and that connection only grew stronger every second I spent in his company.
“Your wish is my command,” he said.
Those words again. He’d said them earlier, and this would have been my wish. Every single bit of it.
Keeping his hand behind me, still protecting me from the bark, he lifted me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and held on tight to take some of the load off him. But he didn’t seem to have any problem lifting me, even with only one hand fully free.
He stared up at me, the intensity in his eyes warming my heart as he managed to maneuver his erection toward my entrance. He slowly slid into me, knowing I was a virgin and this might hurt. I braced myself for intense pain, but it wasn’t too bad, mostly the pain of simply trying to loosen up an area that had never seen anything like this.
I slid my eyes closed and moved my hips to help guide him inside, gradually letting him go deeper and deeper. There was no way I’d ever be able to squeeze his full length inside my body—or my mouth. But right now, it was more his width that was making for a tight squeeze.
He let out a groan as I began slowly moving up and down on his shaft. It felt so good, I didn’t want to stop. It was still painful, but I could feel the heat building again—this longing to have him fuck me hard, pounding into me until we both were spent.
At first, my goal was to focus on his pleasure, but soon, spirals of heat were spreading from that area of my body outward. I closed my eyes and focused on the feel of him moving in and out of me, rubbing my clit the way his fingers and tongue had done earlier.
Nobody had ever told me sex felt this good. I’d suspected it did, but if I’d known just how good, I might have put it as a priority earlier in life. I would have at least learned how to masturbate.
Off in the distance, I heard a motor, and I remembered that all around us, life was going on, and here we were, naked in the middle of Rosewood Ridge Park, fucking like two wild animals. The thought sent me over the edge and a third orgasm wracked my body. I gripped my wrist, biting my lip to keep from crying out.
“I’m coming,” I managed to say, giving him the cue that he could let go and fully enjoy this.
I knew he’d been holding out for me, but now he let go, gripping my hip to still me, then moving his hips fast as he thrust in and out, going deep but not any deeper than he had earlier. Maybe he was afraid of hurting me. I should tell him to go as deep as he wanted.
But before I could say anything, he let out a groan and pulled out, gently setting me on the ground. He stepped back and fisted his cock. Eyes closed, he pumped, his movements fast and desperate. I couldn’t take my eyes off the sight. It was the hottest thing I’d ever seen.
Within seconds, thick white liquid squirted from him, dropping to the ground between his feet. That was when I realized what he’d done. He’d pulled out. He wasn’t wearing a condom, and he didn’t know my birth control situation, so no doubt he was trying to play it safe.
“Sorry about that,” he said, dropping his gaze to the ground. “I just…I mean, we didn’t get a chance to deal with protection. I’m sure you didn’t plan on getting pregnant during Biker Blast.”
I suddenly felt very vulnerable, and not just because I was naked in front of a man I hadn’t even known twelve hours ago. I knew this had everything to do with the fact that I’d just given my virginity to this guy. I was scared—terrified—that he might be about to reject me.
“I have to get back to the retreat center.” He snatched up his underwear and put them on as he spoke. “I’ll drop you off.”
“Right. I need to get back to the bookstore.”
I was already in motion. I picked up my clothes and rushed to cover my body. I wasn’t going to let this guy assume that just because we’d had sex against a tree, I’d fallen hard for him.
I had, but this was about salvaging my pride.
“Terra…” he started.
I shook my head, cutting him off. “We should just go. A large SUV is headed this way and I’m betting it’s full of kids.”
That seemed to be all it took to get him into gear. Normally, I’d worry that the people in the SUV would assume we’d been up to no good back here. But right now, I didn’t care.
Try as I might to hide it from Nate, my heart was shattered, and he hadn’t directly done anything to hurt me. But the old me—the one who avoided getting close to anybody because I was afraid of being hurt—had reared its ugly head.
All I could do was climb on the motorbike and hold on, trying not to think about the fact that it was the last time I’d ever get to put my arms around him.
6
NATE
Colin had a date. She was a fair-complected blonde—the complete opposite of my angel in appearance—but every time I looked at the couple, I was reminded of my time with Terra.
I didn’t even know what had happened, to be honest. Everything seemed fine, but suddenly she’d shut down on me, and I was stuck hosting this damn dinner when all I wanted was to go track her down and tell her I was madly in love with her.