Page 2 of Her Cruel Bodyguard

It was difficult to get a moment alone with her. If I am not working around the clock to get things running, I am with her father or with all three of them: him, Vittoria, and Eva. I need time with her to do what I am about to do.

I step into the monochrome space. White walls, black furniture, black equipment, and emotion-strapping white and black pictures taken by her plastered on the walls. I would never understand her inspiration behind this choice of art. Not the photography but the implementation of the art itself. Considering her effervescent personality, I would think she would choose to capture bright colors and rainbows.

She drags a stool and slaps the top of it. “Sit,” she leaves to start assembling lights and other things she thinks she will be needing.

There is no fucking way I am sitting and playing model. I am here to talk and leave. As quickly as possible.

“Eva,” one hand goes into the pocket of my dress pants, but she seems to be ignoring me, dragging as many lights as she can with her. I step forward to help her but the spears from her eyes as she glares at me force my hands into my pockets.

“We are taking pictures, right?” She lets go, stands upright, and rests both hands on her waist.

“To talk,” I clear my throat.

“Now you want to talk?” She lifts both eyebrows, an expression that brings her father to mind in a whiplash.

“We have both been busy.” Or I have been avoiding her. Talking generally is stressful, talking with Eva is close to having a seizure.

“I don’t want to talk.” She skirts me and heads around to the corner, where her laptop, a desk, and a couch are set up. The pencils, stick notes, fountain pen, and a mint green pen holder on the deskare the only items of color in the room.

“But we have to,” I am inching towards her, and when I realize my mistake, I walk to the stool.

She sets her camera down on the desk and I relax a little. I never know what to expect when she is holding that weapon that brings all my insecurities to the surface.

“Humor me,” she turns to face me, arms folding across her chest. A miracle, to say the least, since it’s keeping that view concealed. My mind is fucking filth.

“Did you…” I pause, thinking of the best possible way to ask this question without ticking her, “Did you tell your father about it?” I gulp, waiting for her to understand, but when she squints her electrifying tidal blue eyes, I can tell she has no clue what I am insinuating.

“It being?” She lets out a breath that tells me she is tired of trying to be difficult. I was waiting for it. Her span of being difficult is short.

“The kiss,” I grind out.

“What kiss?” She contorts her face, then lets it fall, then her eyes shut for a quick bit, and then they open, “You are joking, right?”

“No.” I am not. I never look or sound like it because I possess not one jesting vein in me.

“That kiss?” She scoffs. I am relieved that she thinks of it as nothing now. I can imagine she has had more, perhaps better, experiences with boys her age, and that, although mine was her first, it has no place in the grand scheme of kisses.

However, I also want to shoot anybody who has ever come that close to her.

“That kiss,” I confirm.

“That was years ago, and you are asking now?”

“Did you tell him?”

“Why would I?” She lifts both shoulders. “Did it happen?” She stands, and I grit my teeth.

“Eva…”

“You act like it never happened,” she intersects, “I could have been tricked by your actions into believing I dreamed about it,” she stands and circles the desk to plop on the couch behind it. “We can keep it at that, can we not?” she takes off her glasses and drops them carefully on the desk.

I nod once. “That we can do.”

She gets up and moves a bit too hastily, almost tipping over the items on her desk. "That would be convenient for you, wouldn't it?" she asks,stompingout from behind the desk and dashing toward me through the light stands and other props she brought out for the never-to-take photo session. "Acting like you never wanted to kiss me."

I bite down my tongue because now it wants to speak. It wants to tell her how fucking much I had wanted that kiss and how it had felt like a defibrillator, waking me up from a life of gloom. But that she will not be hearing from me.

“I have always done my damn best to keep away from you and show restraint where you are concerned, Eva,” this truth she can hear me say. A glimpse of the truth. A snippet of my hell. The torture I have to go through every fucking day, perhaps for the rest of my life, depending on what her choice is.

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