I tried to reorient myself.

His hands still touched, bracing my forearms, and didn’t let go.

They didn’t leave my buzzing skin. Not until I hastily stepped back. This time, I managed a safer location where I wasn’t about to crack my head open.

That would be very bad publicity for the university.

I rubbed my elbow, averting my gaze. “Sorry.”

“Be careful what you’re doing,” snapped his sharp tenor. “Now I’m late for a meeting.”

“Sorry,” I repeated, not turning my back.

I quickly made my way away from the man that smelled toe-curlingly sweet, and down the stairs. I was back outside under the sun, slowly thawing whatever chill came over me back there.

I just felt... off.

Even if?—

Everything was fine.

I took another deep breath, but it was as if I could only smell the alpha in my airways anymore.

Chai and spices and a sweet something that I couldn’t quite put my finger on yet.

And I never would.

A heavy feeling, a whine built in my chest and I slapped my hand over the space.

Everything was completely fine. It was.

I told myself this over and over again because it had to be– even as the world started to swirl all around me and my eyes turned up to stare at the too-bright, too-sweet, too blue sky.

Chapter

Four

ELLA

“Oh my god, are you okay?”

I didn’t make it to the ground before I managed to catch myself. My hand slid along metal before finding a purchase on the edge of a bench. My knee, however, didn’t get away unscathed when it scraped against the sidewalk.

Did I just… did I almost just pass out?

This cannot be happening right now.

I did not faint. Ever. I couldn’t.

I forced myself to keep my eyes open and pushed myself to nearly standing. If I fainted completely, I knew what would happen, especially now that there were witnesses. I would be forced to go to the hospital if I couldn’t come up with a good enough lie as to why I fainted.

And, to be honest, I wasn't feeling all that creative right now.

If I went to the hospital, they’d ask who I was. And because of how unlucky I was with this life I was given; I was sure they would somehow figure out that I certainly was no beta. Even more so, I was certainly noElla Jones.

Then, they would find me.

I could not faint.