Page 44 of The Companion Love Trap

He kissed my neck, his words rolling over me, the feeling conveyed telling me they meant something powerful. Something beautiful.

“I cherish everything about you, even your stubbornness. I believed if I showed you how steady I was, how I wasn’t going to change you or disappear on you, then you’d let me in.” He paused like he was gathering the courage to say the rest. “I know your fears, Meu Tudo. But you don’t have to do it all on your own. You don’t.”

“It’s just easier that way,” I confessed. “If no one expects anything, then I don’t have to worry about letting them down. If I live my life just for me, then I’ll always be happy.” The words sounded feeble, even to my own ears. But they’d been what I lived by for the past eight years.

When I thought about it that way, I realized how dumb it sounded.

“Baby, you could never let me down, at least not in the way you’re afraid of. I’m not your mother or your music teacher. You don’t have to perform to earn my heart or love. You have it. You just have to take it.”

I sucked in a breath, both at his mention of the people who’d hurt me and the implication that he loved me. It was too much right here for me to process, so I pressed my eyes closed as I took a deep breath and regretted telling him about my past—my life before.

But that was shit. I’d wanted to tell him and then punish him for my own vulnerability by avoiding him for months. The desire to do it again was thick, but I wouldn’t live my life that way any longer. I’d let myself down by avoiding anything real.

“I can’t tell you what you want to hear right now,” I whispered as fear galloped through my body at that small act of bravery.

“Okay.” He kissed my neck. “I understand. I knew it was a risk to push you this early. But can you be open to seeing how this might work beyond this week? Don’t make any decisions now. Just…allow yourself the chance to experience a relationship without your walls. Please?”

Everything in me wanted to rise up and knock down his adoration, feeling undeserving of it, but I shoved it back. Cruz never asked me for anything. Even this was ultimately for me. He had been constant, and I used him for it. I didn’t like how that made me feel, either.

It scared me not to have my walls, but maybe it was time to let them go. I’d built them to protect myself, and they’d done their job well.

But what good were walls if they never let you grow? If they kept everything positive out too? I wasn’t the same girl I was when I left home, so perhaps I should re-evaluate the things I wanted in my life.

Companion Rule #9—never be afraid to pivot.

“Okay. I’ll be open.” As soon as I said it, my body relaxed, like it had wanted me to give in.

“Thank you, Meu Tudo.”

Cruz’s hands roamed higher, cupping my breasts as he pushed his lower half into me. His lips brushed against my throat, and I sighed into his touch.

“You look so gorgeous in this dress. I kept thinking how much I wanted to fuck you in it all through dinner. I’m desperate for you, baby.”

I moaned as I dropped my head back, loving how expertly his hands touched me. My top was pulled down within seconds, and my tits spilled out as the night air touched them. Cruz’s fingers rolled my nipples, their peaks hardening. His other hand pulled my dress up in the front, his fingers diving between my legs as he found my pussy. The last few hours had made me needy, so I was glad he wasn’t messing around.

“Always so fucking ready for me. I love how wet you get.”

He didn’t waste time, quickly plunging his fingers deep into me. I could hear people below and above us on other decks, adding to the thrill of getting caught, my exhibitionism fully engaged. My legs shook as an orgasm rushed through me, and I turned my head and cried into his suit jacket as I came hard.

“Ahh. God. Yes.”

“More. I need to be inside you now! Here or further back?” he asked, barely breaking through my arousal.

I glanced over my shoulder and saw a nook with a few deck chairs mostly hidden in the shadow. It would be easier to hide what we were doing there instead of here in the open. Not to mention the fear of falling over the edge when Cruz fucked me so hard I lost all control of my limbs.

“There,” I said, nodding in that direction.

Cruz picked me up and sat down on the lounger quicker than I could blink. Straddling his waist, I eagerly unzipped his pants, not surprised when he sprang free. The man went commando more than me. I stroked him once, his piercings cold against my hand. He let out a strangled growl, and I smirked, liking that I had him.

“Raios me fodam!” he cursed, his eyes pleading.

“I don’t know what that means, Cruz,” I teased as I lifted myself and positioned him between my legs. My tits were still out of my top, and he reached forward, sucking one into his mouth as I lowered. His hands settled on my hips, pushing me down as I sank into him. It was then I realized we’d foregone the condom again, but I was too horny to stop at this point. I moved my hips, and we rocked together, his hands digging into my flesh as he thrust up, unable to help himself from topping. I didn’t care. Cruz made me desperate for him.

I pressed him down and rocked myself forward, hitting my clit on his pelvic bone in the process. His piercings rubbed against my walls, and I felt myself growing close again. Cruz made me feel so desirable that it increased my arousal, making me drunk on the lust between us. It pushed me to take risks, like fucking out in the open on a cruise ship without a condom. But it was Cruz. And I knew that I trusted him despite my stubbornness and my walls. I didn’t want to look too closely at that yet, but I knew it was true.

Our bodies moved together seamlessly, my fingers digging into his chest as I tried to keep a steady pace. The chair moved with us, scraping against the floor with each thrust.

“Te amo, Meu Tudo.” Cruz sat up, wrapping his arms around us as he fucked me from below, the definition of a power bottom if there ever was one. I hung onto him, my breasts smashed against his face as I fell over the edge again, my body coming undone as he sucked on my neck and exploded in me.

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